last chapter 🖤
rakim.
we got in an Uber and made our way to my house. holding hands the entire ride there while we sat in silence.
i wanted to stay mad at him, but i couldn't. i can't stay mad at him given all the shit that ive done, whether he knows about it or not.
when we made it into my apartment. jordan went into the kitchen and i ran to the bathroom.
i felt like i had to throw up after that car ride. i guess fatima was right and i did have too much to drink. i won't tell her that though.
as i was curled over the toilet vomiting my life away i felt jordan's hand rubbing my back in a circular motion.
"here, drink some water. it might help. you might have to throw up again but it's better to get it out now than to keep getting up."
"thank you ba— jordan."
"of course rakim, you know i got you." he said in playful voice still rubbing my back.
i threw up like three times. after i felt a little better i got off the bathroom floor, brushed my teeth and made my way to the bed. i sat on the edge of the bed and jordan sat with. we sat there in silence for a few seconds until i turned to him and held his hands in mine.
"im not gonna lie im hurt but mostly shocked that you fucked another man besides me without me being there." i chuckled causing jordan to looked at me and then look away in embarrassment but i turned his face back towards me.
"but you have forgiven me for my fuck ups and i can't be a hypocrite and stay mad at you when ive strayed."
"jordan i love you! i love you to infinity and beyond nigga." i said laughing.
"rakim you corny as hell," jordan responded back with a big smile on his face.
"i know but im deadass. i want to be with you for as long as i live if you'll have me?"
"duh. you know im yours."
jordan got up from where he was siting and sat on my lap facing me. i put my hands around his waist and reached in for a kiss but he stopped me.
"damn no kiss? you know i want to kiss you it's been almost two weeks since i did."
"i know.......but we're not done talking."
"okay, tell me what's up?"
"what about symere?" he said staring into my eyes.
i sighed and rolled my eyes, "what about him jordan?"
"rakim y'all almost fought and then you said you were going to fire him. i don't think it's fair or right for you to do."
"what the fuck you mean not fair? you
cheated— look i don't want that nigga nowhere around me. i don't know what to tell you."
"if you fire him im leaving vlone."
"you don't want to see him but you caused all of this. and please don't act dumb because you did. he told me that you put him up to seducing me so that you could fuck the both of us."
"i did.....but i—"
"but what? i chose to fuck him at the end of the day."
"ight but i still———"
"look, ya anger is misdirected. stop blaming him for some shit i did. he don't owe you shit, i do though. so if you fire him you better fire me too."
