I sit on my bed listening to my parents in the other room say how worthless I am.My blood starts to boil. I bunch my hand into a fist and punch the dry wall. My hand starts to bruise but they won’t stop talking about me. I go into my dresser and find my razor and hold it firm. I put the tip into my thigh. I slowly draw “HELP” on my leg. The pain is like ecstasy. When I’m finished with my masterpiece. Blood drips from every letter. It’s beautiful.
“Jalisia get you’re a** in here, NOW!!!!”yells my father
What could he possibly need now? I go out into the living room. My parents are sitting on the couch watching … God knows what. Before they say anything they look at my thigh. I shouldn’t have wore shorts.
“What the hell is on your leg?” says my mother
“It’s another one of her ways to get attention. Sorry to break it to you but you are still a useless unwanted brat.” yells my dad
I always felt unwanted but hearing it come from my dad’s mouth felt like someone stabbed me in my back.
“Nobody wants you here and NOBODY NEEDS YOU” screams my mom.
There’s another stab wound. My eyes starts to water. I try to stop myself from crying. I can’t help it .I blink and salty drops of misery sprint down my face.
“Oh look she’s crying. WAH WAH!!You little crybaby” States my dad
I can’t take this anymore. I have to leave. I have to run, but this is my shelter. Parents criticizing everything, no one loves me…Never mind its HELL.
I sprint out the door faster than the speed of light.As soon as my feet step outside, the cold is like a slap across my face.Good thing I had shoes on so I wouldn’t waste time. I ran down the street as if the lightposts’ glares are dots in a connect the dot game and I’m the marker trying to complete the picture.I bolt down the street .All I see is house after house.After I ran out of breath ,from running what felt like 8 miles,I duck behind a tree.As I remain unseen I examine down the road from where I once thought was home.I’m blinded my the shine of headlights.Once the light fades,I recognized the car.Oh No. It’s them.The Monsters.The Beasts.The Fiends.
I lay on my stomach to hide my appearance.Thank God I wore green.As I lay here I devise my plan.I’ll ran down to Kenzie’s.No No No!! Maybe I should go home.Never!!!!!!I got it!! Maybe I should go to the woods. Yes!! Brilliant!!! Perfect place to hide!! I rise from the ground and see nothing but an empty street and cats fight each other to the death.The coast is clear.I get to my knees and start to walk down the street towards the woods.As I hike to the woods I pass millions and millions of houses.Dogs bark.Trees rustled in the wind.Glass doors slam shut.I never realized how loud the suburbs are.
Finally!!!! I reached my destination.Being in the woods feels like where I should belong.The owls hooted.The sound of leaves falling to the ground gently sounded beautiful.I decide to find a place to sit and rest my legs.Thank God the neighborhood people keep their porch lights on or I would have fallen more than enough times.I spot a rock to sit on.I brush of the leaves and dirt of the stone.A gust of wind comes from behind the trees.I put my arms out as if I can fly.I feel the breeze glide through the gap between my fingers.Immediately this put a smile on my face.If this isn’t heaven,I don’t know what is.
“ JALISIA LAY!!!!!!!!”yells a familiar voice.
I turn around and see my dad standing over my shoulder next to my mother.Great!!My heaven got destroyed by the demons.
“WHAT THE F**K ARE YOU DOING OUT HERE!!!!!!!GET YOUR A** IN THE CAR NOW!!!!!!!”says my parents simultaneously.
Should I run for it or just get in the car and go home.I’ll just go home or do I mean hell and take the consequences.I get up without a word and get in the back seat of the car.My parents slam the car door as the get in.
“WHY IN THE F**K WOULD YOU RUN AWAY?!?!?!?!”asks my dad
“Where were you gonna run to?You have no friends.”said my mom with a laugh.
“WILL YOU JUST STOP?!?! WHY ARE YOU GUYS SO...”Damn it!!Why did I say that?I should've kept my mouth shut.
“WHAT!?!?!”my dad says angrily.
I might as well finish my thought.I might as well die saying the truth.
“I said ‘Why are you guys so mean?’.What did I ever do to you.I mean I always do whatever you tell me to.” Why am I crying?Should I continue speaking of just leave it as that.Before I could make up me mind my mom speaks.
“I never realized you felt that way”
They understand me.I thought they were just monsters but they actually understand me.Maybe how we feel about each other would change.
”You are such a little cry baby”mom says with a chuckle in her voice
I can’t believe I fell for it again.They give me sympathy then BAM!!!!!Their comments hit me like a ton of bricks.God, I hate them!!
We finally reached home.
“You guys are insensitive,heartless,inconsiderate, malevolent people.Why do you hate me so much!?I’ve never done erroneous to either of you.Unless me being born was biggest mistake ever,I don’t know what I did wrong.”I explain,aggravated.
Did I really just say that?Oh myGod!!I run out the car and slam the door before another word is spoken.
