The Promise

CHAPTER 1

When he left me, I was devastated..I went into a depressed mode, the world started to look pale and dull, nothing was seeming right..

I had broken all my contacts from the outside world.

I sobbed every night cursing my destiny, cursing the god above for taking away my only reason to live.

My friends tried consoling me & gave me comfort but that wasnt enough for me.

I needed only and only him to comfort me, to love me but the fact that he wont come back was giving me so much pain.

Living this life without him was in itself a pain, a pain that runs in ma blood and I can feel it, a pain of not having him closer to me, a pain of not hearing his voice again, a pain of not seeing him again, it was an excruciating pain..

Every second without him was killing me,I wanted to die well i tried to kill myself but somehow every time I survived..

I'd shut myself completely from the outside world and started living in my own hood..

One day my childhood friend came to visit me to my house, I was not interested to meet her because I hated to see people watching me with sympathy and pitying eyes..

My friend insisted and came into my room, we talked about our childhood, she was trying hard to make me laugh but it didnt work then she suddenly out of nowhere asked me to accompany her to a near by coffee shop, she forced me(literally dragged me)

As soon as we stepped out of my house a cool breeze touched my face and I went into flashback where he told me *whenever a breeze passes by you, that will be me touching you*

I brokedown on my driveway, all my strength was gone again and everything blackout.

When I opened my eyes,my surroundings were all white,I thought I died and was smiling but then an old man came into my view opening my eyelids and calling my name.

At this moment I knew I wasnt dead..

Doctors admitted me and I started getting treatment for my so called obsession or another word depression..

My nightmares started to vanish orelse evrey night

I used to be awake fearing if I fall asleep I will have those dreams of him leaving me,leaving

me in darkness and never coming back to wipe my tears or to make my fears vanish..

Slowly slowly I was recovering(as my doctors said) and gave me the number of one reowned psychiatrist so that I can leave my past behind..

I was sure that I don't want treatment any more, I love to be in his thoughts alone but my mom reminded me about what he'd said about my promise to him about living my life and being happy for him..

It motivated me a bit so the next thing I did was I called his office and booked my appointment and went to the clinic..

The receptionist was sitting there filing her already

manicured nails, I was like her too in the past giving detailing to

every little thing I did but now i'm broken apart and I

no longer wish to be a person that I was..

Im settling into my own world where no one resides except me and only me..

I went up to her desk and asked her politely"Hello,i've an appointment with Dr.Charles, will you direct me the way to his cabin?"

she looked up at me and scrunched her nose with a disgrunted look kneely noticing me from top-bottom and she said under her breath "you look like a garbage bin, poor you"and chuckled..

As soon as she said that my eyes started to prick & I gulped a lump in my throat.

Again I asked her kindly "Hi, i've an appointment of Doctor Charles, will you direct me to his cabin?" this time she didnt even bother to look up at me, she was busy talking with someone on phone and flipping

the pages of a magazine.

Just because i'm not showing ma curves and not wearing baggy clothes doesnt mean I look like a barbage bin, suddenly my mind wandered to the time i used to wear skinny jeans, short skirts and figure hugging outfits and how he used to flatter me with his flirty comments about how beautiful i'm looking, I started breaking down

thinking about the past, i'm always this weak when

it comes to him..

Suddenly i fell

backwards but a hand grabbed me by my waist and pulled me forward before my butt

touched the floor.

I kept my eyes closed sobbing,

I didnt dare to look at the person who was holding

me right now, he was calming me saying"Everything Is Alright" that words and the

tone of the voice was so calming and soothing..

After My Boy left I never felt secure but here being in this person's embrace I was feeling secure..

I wanted to rip this unknown person's hand from my waist, rather than ripping his hand off; i stayed in his arms crying..

I dont know why i'm feeling this but this person was giving me a caring vibe.

He again spoke softly rubbing my back "sshhh its okay"

I realized how close he was, I jumped back and took two steps away from his arms.

He turned to the receptionist and said "Carlyn you're fired"

He then turned to face me, smiled and said "Hi I'm Doctor Ashley Charles and are you Miss Kristen Holmes?"

I just nodded.