Addiction🥀

Am not strong enough

**Betty pov**
"Hey wats wrong you seem so sad moody stressed ," Victoria questioned me yes I was Mad I never knew I will be this freaking jealous well it's been weeks yeas we are fine with my baby buh I got things have not told her and the more I keep the more I feel so weak I don't want all this to just blur because I love her so much to take any chance not to loose well soon i will think of wat to tell her because this issues is causing less talk with my baby I want her buh it seems she can't see that
"Desky talk to me,"
"Am fine it's nothing I think am just bored ," well I had to lay because for real I have not being fine  have been crying all nights my pillow if it would talk right now my baby would die due to anger from that pillow  my baby should have noticed am jealous about her with some chick she has been with ( well yes there is this chick well she's two years low from our class buh all she does is to come and stay with my baby writing letters there is no time for us anymore I never wanted a third wheel and after night preps they would stand just meters away from my window all talking arghh am mad and very stressed I love her so much and am starting to fear have never felt this way I need a hug I need someone who I would talk to and just release all this pain hatred I donno wat to say anyway I have to be strong well the girls name is RUTH JONES yeas it's pissing more our last name is the same it should be just me and my baby this thing is freaking me out ) I just found myself sobbing crying I really need hugs I donno who I should go too I just got out from class I need my time alone and just then I met with this chick well she's wat I needed her hugs are the best and she understands me so well because she's a lesbian too I have been telling her how I feel and she just babies me so well whenever I am with her I really forget about that Ruth with my baby
"Hey my pumpkin wats wrong ,"
I just ran and hugged her well I needed her her tight hugs were just wat I wanted I could not take I just cried out loud and there she is
" Hush pumpkin hush all will be fine because you need to talk to her it will make you sick ok by today I want to see you with the big smile I always have ,"
Well isn't she good well there have been bad stories about her buh with me she's my pumpkin she's just perfect I love her well wats not there to love all she does is to be right next to me whenever I want her poops I forgot well she's called colyne diedre no similar names like my baes chika arghh buh she's perfect I had to go back to class and just after that hug I felt kinda fine she got miracles towards me
"Mmmh colyne am better thankyou I have to go back to class,"
" Ok my pumpkin give me a smile good take care of yourself I need you bye ," and she just left giving me a peck well she has done it for a while and am used to it and we got some gestures we used telling each other I love and thus wat we ended doing oops there she is standing I think she has been there for a while
"Hey babe," i just had to force the names out I don't need the fights right now

"Don't babe wat was all that betty the hugging the peck ,"
"You know wat don't start with me am not ready for your bullshit ," i was mad wats up with her she's the one making me to just cut her off then all this nonesensee and as I was walking out she had a hold on my hand and grabbed to "our tree " ( yeah the tree we first made out the tree that was only ours the tree with our names yeah there)

" Get off me you got no rights to grab me like that and as I said am not in your moods bitch go and bitch around with your new chica ," i was really sad I couldn't hold it buh cry out loud

"Ooh my new chica ,"
" Ahh bitch don't bring this acts  yes your new chica Ruth Jones ooh and yes God catch you still got goals names ,"

" Aghh Betty really you think Ruth is my girl I thought we ended this talk she's nothing and I love you ,"

" Ooh she's nothing when was last you came and stayed with me when was last we had those long lasting talks when was last you wrote a letter when pirrie oops I forgot it was when she came around and bring her into my class you sit with her you do all the stuffs we used to do and you bring all this attitudes towards me grow up ,"

"Atleast we are not kissing ,"

"And wat do you want to mean with that ,"

"Well your highness good with no mistakes at all Betty Jones I have been told your so called colyne have been giving you my cuddles I think hers are better by the view and are her lips more sweeter than mine answer me eeh or does she gives you more slept with her how are her touch bitch because as I can see whenever you cry am no longer your shoulder to lean on your good beautiful girl with your stupid gesturing slogan is there who is the wrong one,"

" Wow yeah she gives me cuddles that you give out to your new pack and yes she does all that buh one thing have not slept with her you know why because guilt will eat me for doing such I will feel guilty that I have never given her the attention she gives because I know I got a girl and I love her that I fear loosing her and that fear is eating me up I gave her my heart buh it seems she never sees that and why I don't have the answer and to add it all she listens to wat people say she no longer question me she does wat she want she does her thing with her new girl right beside my Window just to have a view because that's not a coincidence and does she knows how many sleepless night I have been having because I miss her she can't because even the poem mettings we no longer have them   well how could she know with her new miss how you can't boss up pirrie you know wat am tired of trying hard to make it clear to you I fucking love you you can't see that because all you do is to listen I think I should start listening too so I can make this love grow as hatred and forget you yes your highness good with no mistakes has spit it all ,"

I really couldn't take it I ran out crying  she's too much she's freaking to much is this how love hurt that that u feel the world is not on your side that you can't eat that even those forced smile cannot exist because they end up with tears that you feel nothing just to stay alone I feel like my life is cursed EARTH EAT ME UP

**Pirrie pov**
Well after that talk I donno I always vomite words towards her that are so hurting I really need to be alone well Ruth she's nice and I can't tell her to stop talking well she told me she fear Betty on the other side I love Betty I want her buh after this have lossed something I always grip on I donno wat to do I can't cry am strong arghh I think jealous is a bad disease in love because whenever I have a sight of colyne I feel like beating her up she gives her all I want I feel sick I need to just stay alone because this fight got no forgiveness at all and am not strong enough to handle it

Hello loves vote ❣️
Well sorry about the new names I hope there is no confusion well you will see the sweet people for a while
And let see if pirrie and Betty will come back again ♥️