I Was Once A Normal Girl

The start to a long journey

                1 week later

                Cheyenne POV

Today I go to rehab. I am a little more than nervous; my friends won’t be able to come for a whole week while I get settled in. I have to be in the facility for 30 to 60 days. I look around my once home and step out of the door closing it to be greeted by my friends. Niall was first to run to me picking up my suitcase, he has barely left my side since what happened. Beth is connected to a terrified Harry. Eleanor was holding Danielle’s hand and Liam and Louis were behind them grabbing there waist protectively. Zayn sat in the floor of the van they had brought with his feet dangling out to the driveway. I wish my dad could be here for this, but he is still in America.

"Are you ready love?" Eleanor greeted me with a hug and I smiled in her neck.

"As ready as I will be." I laughed at my joke.

"Well let's get going." Niall closed the trunk and I slid into the passenger seat. He sat in the driver’s seat. Zayn, Harry and Beth sat in the middle section of seats. Louis, Eleanor, Liam and Danielle sat in the far back. Danielle was sat on Liam’s lap with her face buried into his neck. They all looked so sad when I looked at them.

"Do you want to listen to music?" Niall asked starting the car. I shook my head and just stared out the now moving window.

The drive there was about an hour long and no one dared to talk. I head sobbing coming from the girls followed by a calming sigh from the guys to them. I kept glancing at Niall and every time another memory flashed through my head. I reached over trying to grab his hand and he met me half way. His fingers intertwined with mine his thumb making soothing circles on my hand. I watch the many trees pass the window. I couldn't take the silence anymore.

"Can I plug in my phone?" I looked at Niall and he gave me a halfhearted smile and nod. I took out my phone that now had the case from the concert back on it.     

"I love your case!" Louis yelled from the back earing laughs from everyone in the car.

"Thank you Lou." I plugged the cord into my phone and 'Deadly beauty.' Began to play. I quickly changed it so that no one would hear the lyrics. 'We are never ever getting back together' played in its place.

"NEVER EVER GETTING BACK TOGETHER!" Louis shouted from the back and we all joined in.

I turned the radio down after we finished the song because I didn't want my head to ache when I first got there. I watched for another 30 minutes as the cars passed and the trees sped by. I watched the birds fly freely. I would look over in cars every once in a while that relieved a family. I hated that I would never be in a good relationship because of what has happened. I used to think I was normal looking but then voices told me I wasn't. My voices told me what everyone was too scared to. I would look at myself in the mirror and feel terrible. When I started to model I never thought that maybe I was so skinny. I would just look in the mirror and remind myself that I am disgusting.

"We are here." Niall shook me out of my trance. I looked back at the others who were cuddling each other trying not to cry. Zayn sat with his head dug into his hand with tears running down his face. Something was really bothering him and I don't think it's my problem.

Now we stand in the lobby of my new home. It's big and roomy. Skinny girls walk around everywhere and I watch them carefully. Some looking as sick as me, some worse, some better. Niall checks me in and we wait. I sit on his lap while Eleanor shakes in Louis arms. Beth crying quietly into Harry’s chest. Danielle and Liam seem to be doing pretty well, they look worried when they look my way but they seem to be stronger than the other. I wonder if this is what Niall saw the whole time I was asleep.