My little Appreciations

To Michelle

Appreciation post for: emperess101

You may not read this, but I had to get this out there. I do and still consider you as a friend. I know we didn’t get much out of our friendship. And to be more fair, most of that was also my fault, too. After having some time to think to myself on it more, I came to realise. For starters, you cared a lot, so I can’t necessarily blame you for always worrying. It’s a sign you care. But no, I don’t mean to make it seem that’s all our friendship was built on. To be honest, I wanted more than just venting out about stuff. I wanted to talk about other things, too. But because I get awkward and I know how you get about awkward messages and stuff. I know I do need to try more on my side, too.

About the problems I face almost everyday. I don’t like having them and I don’t normally like to include anyone in them. Unless if they asked, but at the same time, I want peace in my life, too. So I’m avoiding that to the best I can. Though that can’t always work in anyone’s favours but how we choose to act on it is what really matters.

So to be fair, it wasn’t just you feeling like you wasn’t the right friend for me. I’m at fault there as well and taking this moment to learn to also appreciate the friends I have before they go. I don’t know if there will ever be a chance to start over. But I do hope you know you was a great friend to me. I had fun chatting with you, even though I’m always hesitant. I do, too, also enjoy our conversations. I know our talks weren’t always the greatest. But I do appreciate the advices you had given me. And I’m sorry that I had made you feel that way. Honesty do hurt, but I understand more now on it. If there is a moment we can put that behind us and try to start over. I would do my best to prove myself. Overall, stay being awesome. And thank you for being my friend, I very much appreciated it.