Modern AU! Levi x depressed! reader

Nightmares

Y/n pov
I jolted up from my bed. Every night Ive been having the same dream. And it wakes me up and I always end up crying.

~*~INTO YOUR NIGHTMARE WE GO~*~
I was walking into my mothers house. All I heard was yelling and bangs of furniture being broken. I went into the house to see no one. I went back to where the bedrooms are and seen glass, broken furniture and other broken things in the hall way and in my mother and step fathers room. I quickly went into my older brothers room and sat on the bed with him and my little sister. I quickly wrapped my arms around my little sister, and covered her ears so she wouldn't hear them yelling and the loud noise of stuff shattering or breaking on the ground.
My brother looked at me and said,
"Why do they have us stay in a small room right next to where they are fighting? Why can't they let us go outside?"
I shrugged, "I don't know. Let's just sneak down stairs and leave, or jump out the window?"
"We can't. They'll see and come looking for us." My brother, as always, decided against it.
"Are you sure about that? I mean, they can't stop fighting for more than 5 seconds to see what we are doing." I questioned my older brother.
"I don't know." He said. Sighing.
After a few minutes we heard a scream and crying. Then, we heard a door slam. We walked out of the bedroom and saw blood. And our mother on the floor bleeding.
~*~ End of nightmare~*~
I've had enough of the nightmare. I wanted it to stop. I just didn't know how to tell anyone. My mother is still alive. She is still with my so called Step-dad. My brother lives with his father. My sister lives with our Grandparents. And, like I have been my entire life, have been living with my uncle.
I've been pretty sad the past few days. At the beginning of last school year. I got depressed because of what's happening with my family. And know this year. I got talked about. I still am. But, then I seen this one guy, Levi, it was like love at first site. He makes me happy. I wasn't depressed anymore. I liked him for 5 months. I loved him. After about 2 months after I seen him for the first time. He got a girlfriend, Petra Rale. He never even noticed me. When I figured out they were together. I had a complete melt down. My best friend was there for me though, Mikasa, Eren Jeager's adopted sister. Mikasa was always there for me. Through every twist and turn. Through every fight and mess up. She was always there for me. And I was always there for her. After a few days. I got over it. But I still loved him even though I knew he didn't love me back. I didn't even know him.
Three days ago. Our school was saying thank you to the students from other countries for coming to our school for half a year, till Christmas break. I was praying they wouldn't call his name. Cause you see, Levi was a French guy. But he lived in South Korea. So he was going back to South Korea for the rest of the year and staying even after that. And we lived in America.
When they called his name. I felt like my heart broke into a million pieces. I turned to my friend who was sitting next to me, Ymir, and rest my head on her shoulder. She hugged me and whispered calming things into my ear. Saying it was ok. But it wasn't. I waited for Mikasa to come back before I started having a mental breakdown. When I seen Mikasa come in. She looked at me and instantly knew what was wrong. She led me into the girls locker room. She didn't say anything but rubbed circles onto my back. She told me it was just a boy.
That's what broke me to start sobbing loudly.
"It's not just a boy. How about you having someone you love. But could never talk to cause you were to scared to. To move across the world!" I said through the many tear I was shedding.
After my little melt down, we walked out of the locker room. as we were walking, I seen Levi and somehow sent him a little mind message saying, 'look at me, please. Just once?' And he did. He looked at me and didn't turn away. But when he did. His friends started saying, 'come on.'
Now. He's gone. I wasted my time practicing on what to say to him.
I had so much to say to him. But all I did was watch him walk away. Walk away from his friends. His girlfriend. Me. And most importantly. I watched him walk out of my life. That night. I felt a strong pain in my chest. I felt like I was going to die. It was a pain i never felt before. I cried and cried and couldn't stop crying. The pain in my chest just wouldn't go away. I cried myself to sleep. I haven't smiled in a while. I didn't sleep at all last night. The pain is unbearable. It's not going away.
I don't know what to do know. The depression is back. But this is a different kind of depression. This is a kind that could kill you, without you noticing. Without you trying. The kind that can break you. And I can't deal with it. I just can't.

AND THATS THE END OF THE FIRST CHAPTER.
I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED IT. I AM TAKING THIS FROM MY LIFE AND PUTTING YOU, THE READER, INTO MY POSITION. THE NAMES ARE DIFFERENT BUT EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN THIS STORY HAPPENED TO ME. EXCEPT THE CHAPTER THAT WILL BRING YOU 7 YEARS INTO THE FUTURE. I JUST MADE THAT UP.
I WILL UPDATE SOON.
BYE.