I Love you, the three words she couldn't get herself to say them in person.
I Love you, she's only able to say it when she's laying on her bed with all the lights closed hugging the pillow.
I Love you, she wished she could tell him that before it's too late.
It was early in the morning Mikasa went to visit Eren he was used to her early visits sometimes she spent the whole day and sometimes she left him a little early making sure he has another person to spend the rest of his day with.
Mikasa has always taken care of Eren even since they were children of course it used to irritate Eren at first but as he grew older he couldn't imagine a day without her.
"Good morning Eren" Mikasa said setting some bags down and walking to Eren
"Good morning Mikasa you know you didn't have to bring me more stuff"
"Your mom sent these with me and I brought you extra chips, sweets you were almost out of them when I checked yesterday"
"Mikasa I am sorry for bothering you so much you have been taking care of me and I really don't deserve that"
"Eren why do you always say that? If I didn't want to I wouldn't be coming here everyday"
"But isn't it the time to finally start taking care of your life instead you know that I don't" Mikasa then interrupted immediately
"No Eren don't I want to help you and I love hanging out with you"
"But Mikasa I."
"No Eren stop" Mikasa interrupted Eren again tears started to form in her eyes.
No she couldn't start crying now.
No she promised him she won't ever cry again.
"No Mikasa you always shut me down when I try to talk about this Mikasa you know I don't have much more time to live so stop worrying about me please"
I love you, the words she has been trying to tell him since she knew about his disease 5 years ago.
I love you, she couldn't even say it every time his condition got worse or in the many times he was rushed to the hospital and stayed there for weeks.
"I love you, Eren and I don't want to live without you please" this time she finally said it.
Her throat felt like it was burning she was trying so hard to stop herself from crying.
The sunlight going through the window was so bright but it didn't hide the fact that Eren was now crying he quickly dried his tears with the back of his hand and gestsured for Mikasa to sit on the bed he was currently laying on.
"Please Mikasa don't say this you'll find a better one who can spend the rest of his life with you"
"No Eren I want you I want to spend the rest of my life with you"
"Mikasa I love you too, god I have loved you for as long as I can remember but we can never happen Mikasa, every day that passes could be my last and I can't let you live like that Mikasa you're twenty two you're still young please find someone else who can make you happy"
"I don't want someone else Eren, and I can take anything as long as I am with you"
"Mikasa please I can't make you happy while laying lifelessly on the bed like that please stop loving me and live your life"
These were the last words she heard from Eren before talking a walk for fresh air maybe if she knew that these would be his last words ever she would have stayed more she would have let him talk more or she would have never said those three words.
I love you, she was a little happy that she heard it from him.
I love you, she finally had the courage to say these words even if it was a little too late.
I love you, if she could go back in time she would definitely say it again.
