I woke up excited about today some of the clubhouse his coming for movie day and we're leaving Sunday morning for Texas anywhore I got out of bed and went straight to the bathroom locking the door as I always I put my boys❤️ Playlist on and as it's been going on for I got a text from Charly and my phone starts reading the texts Siri:Still waiting for you 😔 Siri:See you Sunday bitch This has been going on for a while now but I ignore it but it's very hard but I started cutting my wrists in the morning while I shower but I stepped out of the shower going to the mirror I started putting cream on my face put on mascara and lip gloss and put my underwear on and got dressed
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I feel insecure so I haven't went out to parties or anything that girl made me hate my body anyway I put my hair in a messy bun and went downstairs to the boys and girls eating Girls:Morning wifey Boys:Mornin Nic Me:Hi (shyly) They all looked at me weird I just stared at the ground they were all talking while my mind wonders away but I get interrupted by Nessa Ness:Nicci we are going out are you coming Me:No thank you Josh:Are you sure Me:I'm not hungry so bye I walked upstairs to my room getting my phone on Tiktok And I did a in the party tiktok They didn't raise me so fuck they opinion Yea he gon' off the perc Now he raising his meat I don't think that's a nigga that you wanna keep Huh Cause he give brain like every other week He do I smoke all his weed And I told him to leave (goodbye) Use him for money that's all that I need When I see him in public I don't even speak And If he ask to fuck Ima charge him a fee(money) Baby you outta luck if he coming with me Comments disabled
My POV : I finished and decided to post on insta because I haven't in a week Mads.yo
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Compared to you I'm ugly Comments disabled I decided tgo live so I put my phone on the window seal and sat down in my chair Me:Hey guys welcome back I've been gone for a long time because I feel disgusted by myself so much I don't feel normal anymore I've been getting hate and a spesific person texts me every morning when I shower showing hate and I don't think that I don't wanna live anymore and- I started crying so hard Me:So I hope you forgive me for my decision and I still love you all loveys and I hope you all have a great life experience and yea so bye I turned it off and went straight to the bathroom getting my razor I've been cutting and this time I might just leave it to go through and end it all I sat on the floor with the razor in my hands tears coming from my eyes I was about to cut when Nessa came in my bathroom Ness:Hey Nic I wanted- She saw the razor in my hands and she started crying Ness:What are you doing Me:... Ness:Why? Me:.... I just stared at her still crying I felt nothing at the moment I just wanted it to end I put the razor on my wrist and she started shouting Ness:JOSH, GUYS, SOMEONE! I sat there emotionless and everyone came in running Addison tried to hold me But I stood up Me:I'm going to Ryland I walked past them getting my backpack and my phone and car keys and I drove to the Hype House I unlocked the gate parked my car and went to the door to get in and I went straight to Ryland's room getting in I saw him on the bed and I ran to him hugging him tight and that's how I fell asleep
