underage | kim jongin

three

As you and Jongin are getting ready to leave his house, you take another glimpse of everything. He turns his head to look at you and adds a light smile to his features. "Do you like it in here?" he asks sweetly. "Oh yeah I really like it, did you decorate it yourself?" you wonder. "Yes, actually I did," he responds. As he says this he branches off of the path you both were walking to take a detour to his kitchen and grabs two beers. Jongin lightly jogs back to you and you walk back to your pool. You step in and adjust to the temperature. Just after twisting the cap off of his beer, Jongin follows your steps, not taking him as long to adjust. You both just sit there in a comfortable silence, Jongin once in a while taking a sip of his beer. "You want a sip?" he asks you and you evaluate the situation in your mind but before you can come up with a logical answer you take it upon your impulse to say "sure," and take a small swig from the top of the beer, handing it back to him. He takes a sip just after you and places it on the edge of the pool. After that he twirls and offers you his back "wanna piggy back?" you nod your head and place yourself on his back. He swims a few laps and you both just laugh. As the laughter fades out he says "You know I saw you that night, right? I don't mind," you just sit there, looking awkward. He pinches your cheek and you say "I'm sorry I was just curious and Ten-" He cuts you off with a 'shhhhh' and you suddenly feel a pair of lips against yours. You just follow the flow of his movements. After a few minutes, you feel him scrunch his brows and you infer he's feeling a bit uncomfortable. You unattach your lips from his and wipe them clean. He lets out a big exhale and it turns into awkward silence. "I should g-" "yeah" you both say as he quickly gets out of the pool, grabbing his towel and beer, saying "I'll see you around I guess. Tell Ten I said hello," You nod and wave at his last sentence before rushing to his house and quickly sitting himself down on his couch 'what the fuck was I thinking' he says to himself burying his head in his hands, hitting his head repeatedly. The situation just keeps running around his mind again at an insane speed. Over and over, I just made out with Kalah. Jongin finally lifted his head, eyes low and puffed. 'fuck' he thinks to himself and almost lets out a smile but would feel disgusting if he allowed himself to do that.

~back to Kalah~

Oh. My. God. I just made out with Jongin. Should I just act like it didn't happen? How do I even deal with this situation? What if he never talks to me again. You jump out of the pool, grabbing your towel and heading inside. The cold air to your warm skin causes goosebumps and chills to roll down your spine. You shiver and hear a chime. You look at your phone and see a message from the one and only, Jongin.

Jongin oppa :) - hey sorry that happened, i just got carried away I hope you understand it was a mistake.

Kalah- oh yeah no i totally understand. really, it's fine :)

You feel a ping to your heart, knowing Jongin has to say that so it's not awkward. You know you shouldn't feel this way but you wish Jongin didn't regret what he did, just like you didn't regret going along with what he was doing. Almost, in a way you felt like when you felt uncomfortable it was just your brain tricking you to think this is all wrong but you feel otherwise.
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"Kalah are you shitting me!?" Ten exclaims and drops his jaw. "Ten just listen i-" you try to explain, thinking Ten thinks you're a psycho. "No no no, no need to explain. You go girl go get your mans...you even drank after him?! Oh my god you're so risky lately. I love it," Ten says, trying to make you feel better, and it slightly works. "Ten I know you're just trying to make me feel better, thank you," you thank him, knowing that he supports you no matter what. "Of course Kalah. I love you," he says, pulling you into a hug. "I love you too Tennie, so much," you try to extend your arms even more to make a tighter hug and Ten does the same. "Just know I'll always be here for you, Kalah," Ten says, reassuring you. "I know, me too. You can tell me anything you know that right?" Ten nods and undoes his arms from around you. "Sleepover?" He sans and you laugh and nod.
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"It's been 2 weeks Ten, I totally fucked things up," you say looking at Ten. Your mom had gone on a business trip and had planned to be gone for 3 months. Once in a while, you see Jongin, trading a 'hello' or a 'how have you been' between the two of you. "Oh come on Kalah, he's the one who kissed you first," Ten said, rubbing your back, trying to make his best friend feel better. "Whatever. You know what Ten i'm just going to wait till he says anything and see how it goes, it's not my fault he's being a coward," you say, crossing your arms, feeling bolder. Ten laughs and ruffles your hair. You and Ten had been having so many sleepovers and had been hanging out almost everyday. Ten was always coming up with new things to talk about and new activities for the two of you to do. Ten was always up to no good but that's what you loved about him. Just recently he had came out to his parents. He thought they would be so much less supportive, but thanks to you, he got through it. He was the apple of his parents eye and nothing would change that but he didn't know that, and you were the one who made him feel like it was true. Before you could even speak a sentence more, you hear a knock on your door and then the ring of the doorbell. "Who could that be?" Ten says you shrug your shoulders and jump off your bed, followed by Ten. You walk down the stairs with scrunched brows, wondering who it was. Finally, you get to the door and see the one and only, Kim Jongin. You mouth "Get upstairs it's Jongin!" to Ten and he widens his eyes, while he pivots on his heels, making his way upstairs. You see the last of Tens shirt and open the door. "Hey Kalah, can I come in?" Jongin says "Sure," you widen the door, leaving a space for him to walk in. He removes his shoes and takes long strides to the middle of the entrance. "Should we sit down?" you say. "Yeah, where can we speak in private?" he asks motioning his hand outward. "My mom's not home, i'm alone...what's wrong Jongin?" you gently stroke the side of his arm and form concerning eyes. Jongin almost flinches and says "I just think we need to talk about some things that happened at the pool," You look at him deeply in the eyes and feel a hint of pain. He takes your hand and leads you to the living room, sitting down and placing his hand on his knees. "I'm really sorry if I upset you, I just was drinking a lot that day and-" You cut him off with a reassuring "Jongin it's fine, nothing bothered me and i'm okay, you don't have to apologise,"You pause and look down. Suddenly, he comes in with a big, tight hug and you feel like you've been engulfed with a warm bear. You raise your hand and rub his back as he follows your lead. He breaks away and you both sit there, in a comfortable silence, looking at each other. You think for a little and come up with an idea. "Hey Jongin?" you say. "Yes kalah?" he replies."do you maybe want to go to the mall with me tomorrow?" you ask, hoping he doesn't reject you. "You know what, sure! I needed some new shirts anyways," He says and gives you a fond smile. You smile back and say "does about noon sound good?" He replies "Sounds perfect, I should probably get going," Jongin stands up, towering over you as always and gives you another hug before putting his shoes back on. You turn to him and say "Make sure to get a lot of rest tonight we'll we there a while," he smiles back at you and nods his he's saying "You too Kalah, see you tomorrow," He finally walks out the door and you close it, looking back at the stairs. Ten stands there, a shocked expression on his face "Girl he's in love with you I can tell," He says and puts a grin on his features. "As if he would ever really like me," You say. "I just can't believe you gave away my spot as your mall buddy to some guy," Ten says, adding a sassy scoff to the end of his sentence, trying to make you feel guilty. "Oh stop trying to guilt trip me Tennie you know I love you more than anyone," You say, placing your hand on top of his head, messing up his hai. He giggles and shoves your hand off. "I love you too Kalah," He says, smiling.