I Forgot To Breath

Tasha

I really don't wanna go to this party but my friend was literally forcing me to go. I don't even know whose birthday it is to begin with. I was not in the mood for some reason. I was about to call her and tell her that i was not going when she suddenly pop up in my room. She was all dressed up and looking amazing I feel sick but i know she wouldn't let me slide.

I went to the toilet to take a bath. I took off my bathrobe and stand infront of the mirror. My body felt like someone has been torturing me for days. I thought if i took a nice bath i will wash away the pain i was feeling. I turned on the water and watched it flow for a while. I extended my hands and felt the warm water on my finger. I got in the water it feels even more warm in my body i stood there for more than a minute then i heard my friends voice from the other side. She asked me if i was okay but i didn't know the answer for that. I said i was fine,She told me to hurry up and left. I told my self to get it together and to hurry up. I finished up in the bathroom then quickly went to my room when i got there my friend already picked me out my pitch sleeve less top with my favorite geans. I was feeling good after the bath. I got dressed put on my Gucci heels, fixed my hair got some makeup on then we left the house.

The party was not that far from my parents house. We are not there yet but we can hear the music from here i could tell it was a crazy. There were so many cars and peoples going in z same direction as we are. We got there after a few minutes. The party was big i was really amazed. I can see the peoples inside the house going insane from the car,the music they were playing was so nice. I couldn't wait to get inside but i couldn't find a place to park my car. We finally found a spot to park. I was so excited i didn't even park properly. We jumped out of the car as fast as we can then started heading to the house.

Someone opened the door for us the inside is crazier than i imagined the place was so dope. The lightning was amazing it made me feel like taking hundredth of pictures. We got to the livingroom my friend was hugging some dude i think he hosted the party. He came up to me he said his name was nafi. He is so cute all dressed up i mean i couldn't complain. He went to the kitchen and got me a drink i accepted the drink and we talked for a while and he saw his friends at the corner of the other room then we went where they were standing i was so nervous. When we got there everyone of them greeted me like they knew me before all of them where nice.

There was a girl with them too. I think she was pissed or something. She didn't even say hi to me at first. She is beautiful and scary at the same time. She have the look of those people that can be very nice if they like you and end your life with just a blik if they hate you.She was looking at me in a weird way i was confused then she got up to go outside thats when i saw her bag oh my God my jaw dropped when i saw it I've been asking my paps to get me one of those but he still didn't get them for me. She is some rich rich girl i said to my self.

The guys are talking about something but i couldn't hear what they were talking about i was consumed on my own thought thinking about my father and some other things. I felt nafis hand on my leg. It looked like he was talking to me for a while but i didn't heare anything he asked me if i was okay and i told him i was fine then he turned around and continued his conversation.

I think i was on my thought for a long time because the girl was back and sitting so close to me but i didn't see all that happen. She was acting really weird. I thought maybe i was being extra suspicious but thats how i was raised. I saw her trying to take a selfi but she couldn't fit everyone in her phone it's like ten of us or something. Someone suggested we go to the photo booth. I thought they were joking but they were not. This is amazing i said to my self. We took the picture they turned out to be amazing even tho i was so close to the camera. We went back to where we was stitting and the boys started talking about football and i lost all the interest. I haven't saw my friend since we got here i was wondering what she was doing she's so crazy . I hope she can save me from this football nightmare.

I was looking around for her then the girl asked me to go get a dirk with her. It's like she heard my thoughts or something . She got up and and start heading toward the kitchen . We got in there and it was kinda awkward so i though introducing my self was a better idea. My name is tasha by the way. I said.

Oh tasha!! That is a really beautiful name. My name is esprenza but you can call me hope if you want. So where are you from?

My parents are from Jamaica but i was born and raised here. They always want me to go to Jamaica but i love it here. I feel like this is where i am meant to be for some reason. It just feels right. Even tho i haven't found my reason yet. It just feels right. But my parents can't seem to let it go they keep on pushing me to make me change my mind. I don't even know why am telling you all this. Am sorry i bothered you.

No no no!! I can relate to every single word that just came out of your mouth. I feel like we have the same parents. My parents are exactly what you just said. I mean how do they expect us to leave everything. The life we have,our friends all the memories behind us and just go like we never had friends or memories. It drivese crazy when i think about it sometimes.

Are you serious? I have never met anyone who can relate to me to this level of annoyance. Its so reliving for once to not be mistaken for one of those spoiled rich kids.

We were about to leave the kitchen when the dude that was messing around in there started dancing.
We looked at each other and started laughing. We laughed so hard we even ruined our makeup. We couldn't stop laughing. His legs looks like chicken feet took us over 20 minutes to stop laughing and calm down.

We went back to the livingroom and the boys didn't even notice us. We started dancing my favorite music was playing the boys joined us we all are having a really good time. Hopes phone started ringing so she went outside to take the call. After a minute she came back inside freaking out she said something to josh in his ear then he gave her his hoodie. I think her period came then she came straight to me and pulled me to the corner gave me the hoodie and told me  to wear it and to leave the party  immediately and took my phone put her number in it and told me to call her when i get home. I don't know why she is acting like this but she is definitely not playing so i did exactly what she said. I wore the hoodie and start heading to the door.

I don't know why she asked me to leave the party. Am curious so i sat down at the stare and waited. A minute passed  then i saw him.