he loved me

episode three

Blayke's pov

   We were getting closer to Asher's office, and I was contemplating my feelings towards I am elated that I am going to see him today after a horrible day yesterday and sad that he kicked me out yesterday as well but I know deep down I still love him no matter what maybe he had a bad day, and maybe he didn't get a contract, yeah that's why

" We're here ma'am" Gwen's driver announced, I was about to get out Gwen asked if I really wanted to do this and of course I told her yes , we walked past the receptionist and into the elevator without any query because the receptionist knew me as the boss' wife we go to his floor then we suddenly got stopped by Asher's assistant

"Goodday ma'am's how may I be of assistance" she said politely

" We're here to see Asher " Gwen said.

" Sir is a bit busy" she said looking back and forth between me and the door. At this I got a bit nervous

" Nonsense!, c'mon blayke" she exclaimed while dragging me towards his office doors. I never expected what I was to see next,

"Uhh more baby....uhhh harder..nmmmmhhh... Faster" A girl moaned from under Asher, while he was pumping furiously into her, I stood there frozen not being able to do anything but put my hand over my mouth as I watched my husband do it with another woman they obviously had not noticed our presence, too engrossed in what they were doing until Gwen shouted " you dickhead!!"

It apparently shook me out of my trance and then I did what I was best at I. RAN. I ran past the receptionist cabinet, I ran out of the building, I ran into the streets, I was sure I looked like a crazy woman now but I couldn't care less, I wanted the pain, to fly in the wind while I ran. But then black dots started clouding my vision and before I knew it I was back in the darkness where I loved spending my time.

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"I didn't know it would wear her out like that" I heard a sobbing voice and I immediately recognize it as Gwen but thought otherwise when I realized it was Gwen we were talking about here

" Look you can blame your self plus you'll hurt yourself or the baby or even both, and it's not your fault your brother is such a bad person, you were just doing what was right, and she is just asleep not dead" a male voice who I was sure was certainly Alex's voice

" If I didn't take her there when I knew the skank would be there, I was just trying to make  her see what he truly was  " she said

" Why are you crying?! " I tried to say but it sounded like a croak dew to the dryness of my throat, Alex passed me a glass of water that was placed on the night stand

" You're alive!" Someone shrieked then craned my head and saw it was truly Gwen.

" How are you feeling?" Alex asked

" I am fine" I said looking ahead, while Alex scratched the back of his head.

" I'll go call the doctor " I just stayed quiet on my spot. Then remembered something
"For how long did I sleep?" I asked with no emotion in my voice

" Ten hours" Gwen answered back
"I am so sorry  I didn't think it would get to you like that and..."she said almost immediately, I giggled with little humour in my voice
"It's ok, but what did you mean by you knew the lady was there"I asked her looking straight into her eyes
" Umm...." She stuttered
"Please don't lie to me" I said with tears at the brink my eyes
" It happened three years ago" she started.
" I was going to give him his coat that he left in my house, I caught him in his office making out with his assistant" I didn't want to hear anymore but I had to
" I scolded him and then he said he was tired and just wanted to get a quick release since you were in Africa with Caitlin, he said he would tell you and begged me not too, I thought you forgave him cause we all had lunch at my parents house the next week and you guys were all laughs and smiles, I swear I didn't know that he hadn't told you I found out recently that he has been doing it frequently, and I knew you would never believe me, cause you were blinded by love and then I had the most stupid I deal which I executed today"

I stayed silent while the tears were falling on my pillow, I looked over to her and smiled " I forgive you" I whispered

" Please blayke scream at me, punch call me a bitch for goodness sakes but please don't forgive me just yet, release it, release the anger, you can't hold it back" I looked over at her still smiling again

"I forgot how"I said crying profusely
" Besides the only reason he went to look for refuge somewhere else is because I was never enough for him and never enough for them, my father reminded me everyday" I moved into a sitting position clutching my knees to my chest

" Stop that right now, blayke grow some freaking balls, I know you went through some shit as a child but you don't have to carry that shit through your adulthood.."she was cut of by the opening of the door, in came the doctor looking down at his clipboard" hello Mrs-, Blayke?" I looked up in fright no one called me that name ever since-,  I looked up slowly and saw Herald Matthews from high school then the bad memories started rushing back to me, I shut my eyes tight and crawled back into the corner

" Please don't hurt me" I whimpered
"Leave"I heard Gwen say as she saw the state I was in
" Excuse me I believe I am the doctor here, and she is having a panic attack so I should-" he got cut off by Gwen

"Leave now if you still want your balls intact" once she said that he was about to leave, then I remembered that he was here to give me my diagnosis and I would really like to know why I blacked out like that

"H-he c-can s-stay it's n-nothing" I cursed my self for stammering

" I need to go find Alex, if he does anything," she said walking out probably going to look for Alex I gave her a small smile and a nod, Herald cleared his throat

"You know you shouldn't have maxed your self out like that and you should be taking your supplements"

" I am sorry,I don't understand you, what supplements ?"  I  queried he just laughed and said

" Ok then let me be the first to congratulate you then, because you are pregnant a month and three days to be exact"
What it can't be possible except for that time when, he was drunk and I let him have his way because honestly I was desperate, he had been so busy with work apparently it wasn't only work he was doing at the office.

"Okay" I said dumbly of all the things I could have said, my genius brain came up with 'okay' I am going to be a mom, I was happy and sad at the same time, happy because I am gonna be a mom, and sad because Asher wouldn't be there with me, my thoughts got cut short as the herald started talking

"Yeah so I will prescribe some medication for you and.."

"Thank you" I told him with a smile that I managed to put on but I am sure it came out more like a grimace than a smile

"Blayke, I really want to apologise for what happened in high school, it was very dumb of us and most of us were jealous especially me" he told me

" Jealous how?" I asked tilting my head a little a habit of mine.

" We were jealous of Lucas, he was the only boy you talked to and we started thinking you thought you were better than the rest of us because you were the smartest in class" he explained

" You know it not everything that's meets the eye, besides Lucas was just using me to do his homework" I told him giving him a sad smile.

"What do you mean by that?" He asked
"Nevermind about that, I forgive you, I had forgiven you since that day, you had your reasons, and I feel better now that you gave me an answer, I just have slight trauma from then" I said full on smiling.he had mutter something under his breath along the lines of 'still very very naive I see'

" So you're having a baby, who's the father?, if you don't mind me asking"

" Um....my hu- well my ex husband in the process" I said back to grimacing

" Did you love him? " I looked down at my feet that were now dangling from the bed and slowly nodded, silence engulfed us

" I still do" I said breaking it,  he was about to say something else, when Gwen burst into the room saying it was too quiet for her liking.

" I better go get those vitamins and take care of yourself" he said walking out of the room.

" I don't like that guy" Gwen said out of the blue, while I just chuckled at her antics