lost ones

chapter 1 : the big news

i was pacing back in forth in my living room, waiting for sammy to get home. i really had to talk to him, and this right here would be the moment where everyone figured out if sammy was a good, loyal, boyfriend that wouldn't leave my side. i like to think that, but i'm not sure after this. i sat down on the green couch and my breathing became heavier and my nervousness grew as i heard sammy fumbling with his keys and unlocking the door and barging in. "hey baby" he said and took of his black jacket to reveal his tan arms. i didnt reply. "babe? you ok?" he said. "sammy i need to tell you something" i said quickly. "ok, what's up baby girl?" he asked sweetly and sat down on the couch across form me. "sammy... i-i'm pregnant" i said with a tear rolling down my cheek. the room was silent. i looked up and saw him staring at me. "what are you gonna do?" he said. "have it?" i said like it was the most clear thing in the world. "baby.. don't you think we're a little young to have a baby?" he said. "i mean, yeah i guess, but im 18 and you're 19 about to be 20. so we're definitly not as young as my sister was." "ok serena i'm not trying to pick a fight with you, but i really think that abortion is the best way to go. serena we still have the rest of our teenage lives we need to live! a baby will get in the way of that way to much" he said. "sammy i cant believe how selfish you're being. this is a life we are talking about, thats gowing in my stomach. this isn't time for your whole "teenge years" excuse. sammy you're about to be 20, that's not a teenager." i said looking down. he stood up and walked over to me. "serena i'm not ready to be a dad. ok? i can't. i can't be a dad at 19." he replied. "sammy you are such a dumb fuck it's hilaroius. i'm not getting an abortion. wether you're in this baby's life or not i'm having it. and if you were really a good person and a good boyfriend, you would stay with me." i said with the tears running down my face. "well then i guess i'm not a good boyfriend." he said and began to walk out. "so you're just gonna leave me here? alone? with a baby at 18?" i screamed and he grabbed his jacket. he didn't respond. "hello?do you even have a heart?" i yelled and he walked out the door leaving me with tears flowing out of my eyes like crazy. i was on the floor, crying screaming and punching the couch. i don't know what to do with my life.