Um amor idiota

Capítulo 25

ESTER

Mano como eu quero matar aquela Beatriz, ela passou a semana inteira me provocando, dando em cima do Gustavo, eu sei que a gente não tem nada né, mais eu não consigo controlar o meu ciúmes. Até a Jeh teve que me segurar firme na cadeira pra eu não voar nela.

Jeh: Vc quer disfarça essa sua cara em!- me cutucou

Eu: Vc tá vendo oq ela tá fazendo? E aquele trouxa do Gustavo parece que gosta de me ver com raiva- cruzei os braços

Jeh: Meus Deus Teté kkkķ se acalma, ele não já falou que nem nos sonhos ele fica com a Beatriz?- concordei- Então boba kkk

Eu: Afs, eu vou ficar maluca- deitei a cabeça na mesa e a Jeh ficou rindo da minha cara

Hj é sexta, achamos que ia ser o último dia, mas o professor de matemática quer que a gente venha na segunda pra entregar o trabalho é depois FÉRIAS. Peguei minhas coisas e sai da escola, indo pro ponto com a Jennifer.

Jeh: Nem falou tchau pro mozão kkk- ela disse rindo

Eu: Que mozão oq doida- bati no braço dela

Jeh: Sei kakakka- ela riu mais

Eu: Para de rir sua idiota- bati mais nela

Jeh: Tá parei kkk

Pegamos o ônibus e eu fui pra casa. Cheguei tomei aquele banho pra tirar aquela coisa ruim de mim. Depois que terminei, peguei um pedaço de torta que minha mãe tinha feito e fui comer, liguei a TV e estava passando de férias com o ex, eu nem amo né, adoro treta kakak.

Assisti um pouco e depois entrei no meu quarto e comecei a cantar uma música i hate u, i love you.

Eu:Feeling used
But I'm still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips

And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember

Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too
And I'm always tired but never of you

If I pulled you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit

Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me
But your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart

You ever wonder what we could've been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings
Are all fucking mixed

Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care, you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah, all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me?

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

Depois que eu cantei um pouco, deitei na cama e fiquei refletindo sobre tudo que está acontecendo, eu estou mesmo apaixonada e eu tenho certeza que o Gustavo não sente o mesmo por mim. Será que ele está só se aproveitando de mim e que depois que a gente ficar ele vai me esquecer? Acabei dormindo de tanto pensar