broken hearts

chapter 2

My mom is so stupid not understanding how hard it is to leave the love of your life all alone. This stupid crap is so messed up its not even funny. but life goes on. I actually got some freedom and dated toby. Sadly one day about a week from Halloween I got a text that said he was breaking up with me. I practically died my day was already horrible and then he did that I got so depressed and cut some more. My life at school is horrible I get bullied every day. I wander around boerne middle school north taking one hit after another. One day it was to much so I ran into the bathroom and went to the last stall cried and was about to down some pills I look up and see writing that says don't give up and your beautiful. So I drop the pill bottle stood up and walked out with conference. sadly though that didn't last to long once I saw Toby and my best friend making out in the hall. Toby opened his eyes and saw me in the corner of his eye and he stops they look at me "hi maria said sarah. How are you?" She asked. And I started balling ran into the bathroom with Sarah chasing me. She stood outside the stall trying to convince me not to down the whole bottle right when the principal walks in and says "don't do it." She unlocks the stall door but I down the whole bottle I went to the hospital and got my stomach pumped.i got so many injections.my parents said they were going and getting help for me but I ran away that night while everyone was asleep and Toby at his house I hugged him in tears and said goodbye and that I was going to kill myself that night. He stood fighting tears from coming out. He said that he wouldn't let go because he didn't want me to die. Why is all that popped in my head. He and I talked for about three hours while he was walking me home I climbed back through my window and played down. I went to school that next day wearing a short sleeved shirt that said "LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME AND EVERYONE YOU EVER BULLIED!" With arms full of cuts and eyes full of tears I made it through the day.two weeks later I and dear Toby died Toby died before I did but life sucks.don't kill yourself find help now.!!!!!!!!!