hold me (Yoonmin-ff)

My roomate

"Hi... im yoongi"

"I-im J-jimin" i stuttered why did i stutter.... He smiled at my response. He had such an adorable gummy smile i would die just to see it. Then his facial expression changed as he looked me up and down "What" oh no... he see's my body... he hates it. He got up and started walking towards me "You dont look like you'll ever hurt anyone... turn around ill take that thing off of you. It uncomfortable" i smiled at him and turned around while on my knee's. He took off the straightjacket and i tuned back around as i looked at my clothes. "Oh... you came straight from a hospital?" he questioned i didnt respond and just looked down. "Its okay i wont ask... you can tell me when your ready" i looked back up at him and smile making it hard for me to dee. He chuckled at my reaction "Im going to g lay down and bury my face in a pillow so you can change.... ill probably fall asleep anyway." he walked to his bed sitting the sketch book on the floor and laying down. I grabbed the clothes and i changed after i said "Im finished you can look now" he didnt respond but i heard soft snores. I giggled at him and layed down soon falling asleep to the sounds of his snores.

I woke up to someone opening the door and saying "Jimin your mother is here to give you a few things and to see you" i sat up and just nodded. They left and i realized Yoongi wasnt in his bed. soon my mother walked in and immeditly said "They told me to only bring plain color clothes so here" she dropped a stack of clothes on my bed and then handed me the huge bear she gave me one year for my birthday. The bear was bigger then i am and i immediatly put it in the corner of the bed and leaned against it. "Stand up i want to give my handsome son a hug" bullshit. I got up and hugged her as she hugged me back. She wispered something in my ear "You little dumbass i wish your little stunt would have worked." I knew she was talking about my suicide attempt. After she said that she just let go of the hug and left. I sat down on bed and all the tears just came out. I was sobbing loudly and i had the urge to cut or do something to hurt myself. I wrapped my hand around the arm i usually cut, i dug my nails into my skin as hard as a i can and it soon started bleeding but that didnt stop me. I was still sobbing loudly and letting the blood fall onto the previously white floor but now it had small pools of red. I couldnt breathe i just wanted to die but im not even smart enough to do that. Im good for nothing i should have died when i had the chance. I should have picked a diffrent way to kill myself. I ripped the sheets off my bed and i threw all of my stuff everywhere including my chlothes. I was scream crying at this point as the door slamned open reaviling a worried looking Yoongi with the phycatrist who had the same look. They walked over to me and was trying to calm me down "Jiminie whats wrong" Yoongi asked me with tears in his eyes. Why was he crying ? "MY OWN MOTHER DOESNT EVEN LOVED ME SHE TOLD ME I SHOULD HAVE DIED WHEN I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF" i fell on the floor and into the pool of blood. "NO ONE LOVES ME" "thats not true" Yoongi spoke softly looking down as a few tears fell down his pale cheeks. Why was he crying he didnt have a reason... did he? "YES IT IS DONT YOU UNDERSTAND NOT A SINGLE PERSON LOVES ME AND NO ONE WILL. I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED BUT ILL NEVER GET THAT" i screamed louder this time "BECAUSE I LOVE YOU OKAY? IM IN LOVE WITH YOU AND YOU THINK NO ONE LOVES YOU" he yelled making me cry harder as i became scared and he was crying harder. I guess he saw i was scared because he sat on the floor and immediatly apoligized. "im sorry i didnt mean to yell" i soon calmned down and the phycatrist brought me to the nurse to clean the nail marks.

After i was done with the nurse  i was excorded back to the room where i saw the blood was cleaned up and Yoongi was sitting on his bed looking down. "I-im sorry" i said looking down. He looked up at me and basically ran to me grabbing my arm pulling my sleeve up and lookiung at my arm. He saw the bandages and brought my arm to his face. "w-what are you doing" i asked stuttering again. He then softly kissed the bandages making me blush and look down. He looked back into my eyes and didnt say anything so i spoke "D-do you really love me" i asked "Jimin... im in love with you. When you are hurt i hurt" no... he's lying. He leaned in slowly to kiss me but i pushed him away. "Yoongi-" he cut me off "Im sorry i dont know why i thought you would like guys" he turned around obviously sad and i grabbed his arm "Yoongi i am gay but-" again he cut me off by ripping his arm out of my grip and saying "You dont like me i get it you dont have to explain yourself to me" no i love you im  just scared "No i-" "its fine" i walked to his bed laying down soon falling asleep so i did the same