(Alex)
Mommy mommy mommy wake up come on mom wake up !! I heard my 3 year old handsome baby saying when I opend my eyes I found him jumping on my bed "morning baby want breakfas " i asked him "Wes please mommy" he said with the most cutest face he can make "OK little angle let's go" "Wes mommy I wuv ya" I smiled at him and kissed him chubby cheek.this was a perfect morning with my baby boy with out that abusive shit of my boyfriend.when we enter the kitchen all we saw was beer cans and cigarettes all over the floor always the same shit I see when I wake up a messed up kitchen I can't have a clean apartment with that bastard in it I told Kay to sit down on a chair till I clean this mess after I was ready I asked him what he wanted and he said " pancakes mommy panckaes" I smiled and said "of course baby want to help mommy" with a bright smile on his face he jumped of the chair and came near me to help.every time I look at kay all I see is his fathers face he looks exactly the same blondish hair and pale blue eyes his father is not my current boyfriend I left his father for good because I was and still am no good for him. I was 17 when I found out I was pregnet with Kay I was to much afraid to tell him that I was pregnant and I was a mess my peresnt were divorced and I knew that when I would told mum she will throw me out so I went to my room packed everything and when mom saw me with everything packed she asked me why I had packed my things and I told her " mum I'm a mess our whole family is a mass you and dad are divorced and we don't have money to live with i work from Monday to Saturday and you stay all day here spending my money I can't stay here anymore mom I'm leaving for good" she didn't now what to say but then she said "your leaving huh?? And were you think your going to live ? You are useless you little bitch and what about that niall boy aye your lovely boyfriend what your going to tell him that your leaving for good ? Silly silly girl you are alex !" "Shut up mum OK ? I cant keep living here in this hole of a house I need a fuckin new start for me and the baby I can't keep messing up nialls life with my stupid annoying problems" "you said baby ??? YOUR FUCKINNNN PREGNANT ?? GET OUT OF MY HOSE YOU SLUT AND NEVER COME BACK OK" the only thing I sad to her was "OK mum goodbye" I don't even say goodbye to the person I love the most that was niall I just went to the airport and with the money I had I boarded the first plane to london.I was in a complete trans thinking f that day and I didn't even notice my baby talking to me " mommy are you OK ? " "yes baby I'm OK" with a smile he said "OK" after we ate I washed the plates and went in the bathroom to give Kay a bath I called him and he came running I washed him and got him dressed in a jeans Nike shirt and Nike hoddie and nike shoes he looked so much more like his dad know.I switched on the TV for him to watch so I could have a shower I dressed in a skinny jeans a black band shirt and a black leather jacket and Nike's and we were ready to go i picked up my baby boy and locked thedoor ready to start this day.
