Sadly Forbidden

Chapter 1

I glanced over at my sleeping best friend wondering what she would think of me if I gave into the desires that were coursing though my body. To walk out of this room to find her older brother and confess to him the feelings I had. Her peacefulness was something I could never achieve even while sleeping.

Thoughts of only two things ever racked my brain constantly: not disappointing my mother's ideals and her brother. I knew if I asked my mother would shut down my idea of a marriage filled with love. It had only caused her pain, a pain she refused to let me feel.

Still it didn't stop my mind from wondering towards the boyish blonde who slept close by, I rose trying to quiet my footsteps as I stepped into the hallway. I took one step towards his room before deciding to head to the kitchen instead.

My friendship with Emily was worth more than a thousand diamonds, no matter what my feelings were I had to protect that relationship at all costs.

My head jerked up towards the chuckling I heard in front of my brought my head away from my thoughts as a figure leaned against the counter drinking from a glass. My eyes met the ones they had been searching for, and all at once my heart leapt to my throat.

"Fancy seeing you here at," The figure glanced at the bright digits on the oven screen, "1:43 am." I could hear the humor in his voice, the darkness fading away into a new kind of darkness.

I closed my eyes just allowing myself to feel his presence, his essence, before going to get my own glass of water. Passing by him I could smell the scent I had gotten so familiar to, and my mind could only think of him.

I stood with the door open to the fridge trying to remember why I had came out here in the first place, "Lost Sierra?"

"Um, no I'm fine Michael." I spoke as his voice shocked me out of my frozen state, grabbing the closest bottle of water from the fridge before closing it far too quickly. I took a drink trying to give myself time to think, but even though my thoughts were racing not a single one was sending me help in this situation.

"Can I help?" My eyes locked with his in confusion, his green orbs flashed held concern but flashed amusement for a moment. "You seem worried Sie."

I tilted my head at the nickname, the entire time I had known him we had always called each other Michael and Sierra. It took me too long to respond with my usual I'm fine, the longer I stayed silent the worse I felt.

"I have a crush on you!" The words came tumbling out of my mouth before I could stop them, both of our eyes widened as we started to stare at each other once more. The silence was deafing and eventually I couldn't stand it, I abandoned the water on the counter quickly making my way towards Emily's room not caring if I woke her.

I heard the footsteps trailing me halt as I reached Emily's room, somewhere he couldn't follow. I glanced back at the door closed behind me, part of me wanted to go back and face him. But the stronger part in my bones kept me in place, head over heart.

Tearing my eyes away from the wooden door I made my way back to where I had been sleeping moments before. I couldn't fix anything tonight, perhaps I could blame it on lack of sleep tomorrow, but tonight I could only rest my head wishing for my words to drown within the sea of useless information.

"Sie Mis?" My friend's groggy voice filled my ears as she looked up from her pillow with lidded eyes.

"I'm here Em." Her head flopped back on the bed not so gracefully her head once more trotting off to dreamland. I smiled slightly, whenever I spoke with her at least, my words never were worthless.