I have a story , yet nobody cares , everybody thinks I'm a little girl with mood swings ; they have no idea . I am a girl who sits music up full blast, book in hand , phone vibrating but I don't answer. My mum doesn't listen to me . I don't like to talk about my problems because everyone around me seems to have there own. I let it pile up until the night where I break down
And sobb my heart out.
Yet the next day I'm laughing and smiling. Yeah that's how good I am at acting. Only certain people make me happy 3 that come strait into my head......
Fraser
I've been depressed for a while now sad and depressed, I didn't even no why and I always turned to Fraser he cheered me up and made me laugh and I liked that. We became great friends and we went out and messed around all the time. Turn to Fraser now for everything. Everything except depression. It's not something you blurt out being diagnosed with depression and it isn't exactly something you want your boyfriend to no about is it?
Chloe
Yeah we have promises and we have secrets but we are sisters,we fall out get angry get upset and argue . Promises I wish I never promised. Because if I go back on them she will hate me. he has a boyfriend who lives in America his names Eric, he hates me ; yeah he has had a cruel life but I'm 4 years younger with him you'd think he'd be nicer. I like him he makes Chloe happy and everything. But he upsets me. Yet I can't tell her because she gets upset and defensive . And that isn't what she needs
Ten we have
Jarrod
I love jarrod I really do. We've became real close. I call him my big brother even though he isn't really. He's sweet and kind but yeah he can be a bitch though I'm not complaining. He has a tuff life to with school and everything; he tells me everything that upset him and I like that because I like to talk it out with him and make him happy. we talk about My life but I don't like to I don't like attention. I'm going to meet him in Australia soon and I'm happy real happy but I don't think I can last that long
right now I'm on the starvation diet. Clara has warned me what happens to you and as my body has no iron in it and I keep fainting it will hurt me more. I just want the pain to end but I promised to many people and I know if they read is they will get angry be disappointed and stuff but maybe they don't understand how sad I am ? Maybe just maybe I have a thing called depression in fact I do and I guess they will say I don't but they don't really know what hides behind my smile because even if I don't then how can they ?
