You and Me

Chapter 5. Sorry...

I sat in the back of the van and just cried. Zayn didn't hate me, but he didn't care about me enough to not do this to me. How could he? 

The van stopped. Zayn sat for a moment, then climbed in the back, and sat next to me. I shuffled away from him. "Please don't. I'm sorry." He pulled the tape off my mouth. "'Sorry' doesn't cover it Zayn." I said quietly. I closed my eyes and refused to listen to him anymore. I can't believe he would do this to me. Even if he would have hated me. He pulled my face up to look at him. I kept my eyes closed. "Look at me." He said. I refused. "Leila, look at me." I looked up. "I won't let them take you. Okay? We'll be home by the end of the week if my plan goes well. I promise you'll be okay." He said sweetly. "Don't Zayn. You might as well just let them take me. I don't know what sh!t you've got in, but you should never have got me into it." I snapped and pulled away from him. "Leila, it's not my fault- You-" He stuttered. "They threatened to kill you if i didn't bring you here..." Silent tears ran down his face. "and I- I couldn't let that happen to you." "I'm sorry Zayn, if you would have told me-" Zayn cut me off. "-No! I'm not supposed to tell you this Leila! You can't even mention this to anyone! Otherwise we will never get out of this! we will both die. You have to promise me you won't tell anyone this ever happened, or mention it to anyone..." 

"I promise i won't." I said quietly. Zayn really did scare me sometimes, even when i know he doesn't hate me. "Good." Said Zayn. "They think i want to do this, so i'm going to have to act like it. I Don't mean it, I'll try and keep you away from the others, but if i can't, just do what they say. Okay?" "Okay.." i said. "How many guy's are gonna be there?" I asked. "A lot. We have to go, we're expected at 3." "What time is it now?" "2am. I'm sorry, i need to keep you like this till you're in my room at the house. Just go to sleep, we have a long day." He answered.

I left it at that. How am i supposed to sleep? There's way too much on my mind now. I'm no longer mad at Zayn. He's risking his own life for me. He could have just let me die, and he would have been safe, but he didn't. I listened to the sound of traffic fade away as we drove further and further into the countryside. I want to live out in the countryside one day. I want to be able to sit outside on the grass on summer nights with the one i love, and look up at the millions of stars shineing against the dark skies. One day, that will happen. 

I stared at the stars out of the window, and thought. Where's Liam? Did he get home okay? Has he noticed that i'm gone? Liam... I wish i was with him right now. 

If mum was here, none of this would have happened. No... don't think about that Leila... 

Tears rolled down my face. Why does everything bad happen to me? "Leila... are you okay..?" Zayn had stopped the van, and was staring at me. "Y-Yes." I said through tears. "Then why are you crying?" He paused. "I'm gonna call them and tell them we're gonna be late." Zayn said. "Why?" He didn't answer. Rude. 

"Yeah, we're gonna be late... because I got lost, and now i'm about 2 hours away... Yeah i got her... In about 2 hours, like i said." He put the phone down, and climbed into the back of the van. He untied me, and helped me up. "Zayn..." He picked me up, and carried me out into the cold air, and into a field. We had stopped on top of a hill, near a bench that overlooked a little village, a lake and lots of green fields. Zayn carried me to the bench and sat me on it, then sat next to me. "What's wrong?" "I just... I'm cold?" I tried to lie, and failed. I'm not good at making up lies. They always fail, or don't make sense. "Leila-" "I just miss someone." I said. "Who?" "A lot of people. My mum especially my mum." I sighed. "You'll be able to see her soon. We'll be home-" "I can't." I said quietly. Tears ran down my face once again. "You can-" "No. I can't. She p-passed away a while ago. From cancer. She's g-gone." I cried. "I-I'm sorry, love." Zayn pulled me into a hug. "It was my fault." I said under my breath. "Don't say that! It can't have been anyones fault. why do you think that?" He said suprised. Has he got super hearing or something?! I barely even heard myself! "It just feels like it is." He didn't answer. Finally... Time to think.