Cool Boy and Cold Heart (RAMKING)

Confession

"Ai'Ning! Ram! I love you! "

Ram froze as he heard that  and King allowed himself to hope, just a little bit, that his junior shares even the tiniest feeling for him.

He waited, not moving a muscle, not even daring to breathe as he hoped, wished, prayed, for Ram to say something, anything. Or at least to spare him a glance but when Ram simply walked away without any indication that he even heard him except for that brief pause, he swore he could hear his heart breaking.

After the abrupt confession in which Ram gave no response to, Ram no longer sees King around anymore but then again, that's not a new thing since he usually avoid him anyway. Plus, he needed the space because now, he was having doubt about his own feelings.

He started wondering why was he so mad when King pushed him away. Was it really because he felt hurt that the senior betrayed his trust after he had opened up to him? Was he really just disappointed that King was just like everyone else that he hated? Leaving him after they have broken down his wall?

Or was it... Because he loved him too? Is that why he was so mad, so angry at King?

Shaking his head, Ram tried to get the thought out of his head. It's impossible. He can't possibly have feelings for his senior, he's probably just confused.

"What are you thinking about? " Phu asked, sitting down next to him at the table, a plate of food and a glass of drink in his hands. "You're frowning as if you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. "

Ram merely shook his head, not even bothering to give an answer when Duen suddenly came out of nowhere and sat at the table with a pout on his face.

"I thought you're having lunch with P'Bohn? " Tingting asked and Duen' s pout deepened.

"He can't make it. He said he needs to look after P'King. "He whined and Ram hated how he perked up at that certain name.

"Look after P'King? What's wrong with him? " Phu asked and Ram secretly thanked him in his head for asking the question he was meaning to ask.

Duen shrugged. "P'Bohn said P'King hasn't been coming to class for a week now. He's probably sick, I don't know. "

And Ram felt a tinge of pain in his heart.

He didn't know how or why but as he cycled back from class that day, Ram found himself stopping in front of King's apartment building and as if on instinct, the next thing he knew, he was already standing in front of King's unit but now he was unsure of what to do.

Does he knock? But King was probably not inside . If the senior was sick, then he had probably went back home.

Despite his brain telling him that, Ram's feet stayed unmoving and he stood there in front of the door for who knows how long until a voice startled him out of his internal turmoil.

"Ram? What are you doing here? " It was Boss, someone Ram remembered as one of King's close friends.

Ram didn't answer, he merely stared at him and noticed that he was holding a food package of what looked like porridge in his hand as he scurried through his bag, as if looking for something.

Hearing no response, Boss chuckled as he finally look up from his bag. "Ah. I forgot you're just like Mek. You don't like to talk. "He chided, pulling out a bundle of keys from his bag and using one of it to unlock the door.

Ram continued to stay silent but Boss seemed to understand anyway.

"You're looking for King? He's inside but he's not feeling well so I don't think he can help you with your homeworks if that's what you're here for. "

Ram shook his head at that and Boss raised an eyebrow.

"Oh? Then did you come to visit him? "

Ram was hesitant at first but then he finally nodded.

Boss smiled then he opened the door for him. "Come in then. He's in his room. "He said before making his way to the kitchen.

Ram stayed there in the hallway. Unsure of what he was doing. He's hesitant on going to see King after what happened between them last time. In the midst of his thoughts, he was startled by a loud ringing of phone and he turned around to see Boss talking to someone on his phone.

"Ram! I need to leave right now. Something urgent came up. " Boss said, phone still against his ear as he picked up his bag from where he dropped them on the floor. "Can you help me? Give King his food? I've heated it up. And his medicine is in the drawer beside the fridge. "He informed, giving Ram a quick pat on the shoulder before hurriedly rushing out.
"Oh, and lock the door before you leave! "He reminded, poking his head through the door before slamming it close.

Ram blinked at the closed door, taking his time to process what just happened. He wasn't even sure he wanted to see King but now he had to give him his food? And make him take his medicine? Just what have he gotten himself into?

He wasn't ready to meet King, not yet. And at the moment, he was so tempted to just turn around and leave but his conscience won't allow him to do it. He was not the same as King, he won't betray anyone's trust on him. Boss had trusted him of the task of giving King his food and medicine so be was going to do just that.

Lips pressed in a thin line, Ram placed his bag on the couch before making his way into the kitchen, a place he's more than familiar with since he did stayed there for quite some time.

Grabbing the bow of heated porridge, he placed it on a tray along with a glass of water and medicine before slowly making his way towards King's room.

He knocked. Once. Twice. But there was no answer so he slowly opened the door to see a lump on the bed, completely covered by the thick comforter.

Inhaling sharply, he placed the tray on the bedside table. "I brought your food and medicine. "He said flatly, hoping that King was awake and could hear him but sensing no movement from underneath the comforter, he sighed.

Carefully, he reached over and grabbed the comforter to uncover the person underneath it but was shocked when he realized that King was indeed awake.

And he was staring straight at Ram. But there was no emotion in his eyes and no expression on his face.