Patty Walters

Patty

        Pattys POV :

        I hate school so much no matter what i do im always wrong and i always get made fun of it sucks so much the only thing that helps me is my music and making youtube videos i just hope no one at school ever sees them .... Ive been getting really popular on youtube lately but im so horribly scared someone at school will find them and ill made fun of for it but i dont think i have to worry about that right now because when i say getting popular i mean like 50 subscribers at most. So i just hope none of those 50 people go to my school. I cant wait until i just get out of this misserable place and to a place that loves who i truley am... A guy who loves punk and wants to be a musician and will do what it takes to get there this is really hard for me because of my social anziexty but for some reason whenever im in front of a camera or microphone i feel at home like everything will be okay and ill be safe and i dont have to fear anything it makes me feel like i matter and can make a difference and i love that feeling. One of the main reasons im made fun of is because im straight edge which means ive never had alchol or drugs in whole life and plan on staying like that all my life and i get pressured alot to drink or smoke and i always say no it makes me feel so lonely sometimes  because when im around my few friends there never sober and im the only one that is and they try to get me to drink but i dont want to i dont see a point in it i think all of that is stupid. So many artist i look up to are straight edge to i have been noticing i wonder if it was hard fro them to because sometimes i think it would be easier just to drink then maybe...just maybe i wouldnt be made fun of like maybe i could have a chance at a better life but im going to stay straight edge because thats who i am no matter how hard it is i guess i just i wish i was more accepted in life but you cant choose who you are its just how your born