𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐒𝐄 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐎𝐊𝐀𝐘?oc x kaminari oneshot.

✈️─ the oneshot.

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     "Do you like anyone, Denki?"

Shizuka's question made heat rush to my neck and cheeks. I wanted to tell him, but I'd been scolding myself for so long. Saying that these feelings weren't right, that I should be attracted to the opposite sex. I'd been denying my true emotions for so long that it has become a secret I can't even manage to tell myself. Only when I met Shizuka did these feelings become almost impossible to ignore.

      Did he have to ask that question right now? When I'm most vulnerable? When my other friends aren't here to help me brush it off? I guess that's why he asked. I was silent for a moment.

      "Denki?" Shizuka looked at me, leaning forward a bit.

I shook myself. "Oh, sorry. Just thinkin'." I rested my elbows on my thighs, slouching down into a more comfortable position. "Yeah, I like someone."

     "Cool," Shizuka turned and looked up at the sky. God, he was so pretty.

     I felt upset by his sudden apathy. I paused. "...you don't wanna know who?"

I could hear the smile in Shizuka's words behind his surgical mask. "I already know,"

     Spikes of anxiety shot through me. Did he really? "Who is it then?"

"It's Kyoka!" He said. "She talks about it sometimes."

     Relief washed over me. "It's not her," I paused. A lot of people think I like Jirou. "It's...not a girl." I immediately regretted what I had said. The anxiety quickly returned. Shizuka isn't one to judge, but what if he told someone? No one knew; everyone just assumes I like girls. I mean, when you're friends with Mineta and act the way I do around girls, no one would expect much else.

     "Really? I like a guy, too." Shizuka fiddled with his collar. "I just don't really say much. Only Kyoka and Kiko know who I like."

     "So...so you're gay?" I asked. I hoped I didn't sound offensive.

Shizuka shrugged. "I'm still confused, honestly."

     I wondered to myself if this was the right time to tell him. There was a chance he could like me, right? But, there are so many other guys in Class 1-A and B that are so much more attractive, and definitely better people than me. There is a chance he could like someone outside of school, too.

     "Y'know who I like? I've known this person since the first day of school" He turned to me again. I shook my head nervously.

     I froze as I watched Shizuka lean closer to me, pulling his mask down with his free hand. I was getting lightheaded; I was so nervous. His other hand touched my cheek and pulled my face towards him.

     I held in a gasp as Shizuka pressed his lips to mine. His hand cupped my cheek and kept me from moving. Is this what it feels like to have requited love? I waited for Shizuka to pull away, but he didn't. He kept kissing me, waiting for me to kiss back. I couldn't; I was frozen in shock. My heart was beating so fast and hard it felt like it was going to burst out of my chest. I wanted so badly to touch him. To feel his forever soft skin on my hands. Just as I willed myself to move, Shizuka pulled away. He looked down as he pulled his mask back up.

    "Sorry," His voice was small, like it was before he got a new mask.

I wiped the saliva off of my lips. I couldn't tell if it was mine or his. All I could do was bore my eyes into the cement roof as thoughts raged in my mind. Why didn't I kiss him back? I shoved my hands into my hair, squeezing my scalp as I tried to collect myself.

     "How do you just...kiss someone?" I asked, my voice squeaking. I was extremely embarrassed.

"I dunno. It just...felt right," Shizuka replied. I looked at him. He looked so different in the moonlight. So strangely ethereal. "Do you like me back?"

I hesitated, then nodded. I leaned towards him, and forced myself to usher words out. "Can you kiss me again?"

Shizuka looked at me, slowly taking his mask off. He pulled my face to his again, butterflies that started in my stomach spreading all through my body as our lips interlocked again. I kissed him back this time, winding my hands through his hair. I'd never kissed anyone before, and I'm glad this was my first time.

My dumb ass was so nervous I forgot to breathe. I pulled back and took a few breaths. I brushed Shizuka's soft hair out of his eyes. I loved looking into them; they were so deep and velvety. I pressed my forehead to his. I was too scared to kiss him again.

"Will you be my boyfriend?" I asked. My heartrate didn't slow. Shizuka nodded. Ease flooded me, all my doubts and worries melting away. Then, the realization that people would find out and judge me hit me like a brick to the back of the head. I shoved those thoughts down far enough so I didn't have to fester on them for a bit.

Shizuka said something to me in sign language, but I couldn't understand. "Oh, I don't..."

He pulled his mask back up. "Sorry. We should head inside now,"

"Okay," I wanted to stay outside with him, to hold him and cuddle him, but it was extremely late. We stood up and made our way inside the dorm building, our fingers brushing together. We said nothing to each other. I was shaking with excitement and nervousness.

We stood outside Shizuka's room awkwardly. Shizuka took his mask off and quickly kissed me again. I laughed a little bit and shizuka smiled at me.

"Bye," I said, watching him open the door to his dorm. He waved at me and disappeared into his room.

As I was walking to my dorm, I finally took the time to replay everything that had happened in my head over and over again. The strangest, most wonderful feeling hung around me; finally having my crush like me back. Kissing him at night when no one else was awake, anticipating the next morning...it made me so giddy and filled my stomach with butterflies again, making me nervous, but in a good way. I couldn't wait to see him again tomorrow.

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