Recovery. ( o2l. )

chapter 3.

Wendy's POV

as we pulled up to the house, my hands started to shake. what if they had other intentions other than giving me a new home? I looked over at Connor and he gave me a reassuring smile. we got out of the car and I grabbed my duffel bags while he grabbed my piano bag. he lead me into the house and I stood awkwardly beside him.

"we're home!" I hear Connor shout, and then a stampede of boys run through the door. instinctively, I shuffle closer to Connor with my eyes trained on the boys.

"hi wendy!" jc speaks up first. I smile shyly and I wave. the guys repeat his actions. I smile again.

"well, I'm going to go show wendy her room." Connor says and starts up the stairs. I trudge behind him, dragging my bags on the stairs. I follow him into a red colored room. the bedspread on the full sized ned was simple, yet intricate. it had polka dots with all shades of red on it. she turned to her right and saw a desk with a macbook pro sitting on it. i turned to connor and grinned, wrapping my arms around him gently. 

"thank you so much," i said, gratitude filling my voice. he chuckled and hugged me tightly. 

"no problem, baby girl. i'm gonna go downstairs and cook dinner while you unpack, okay?" he asked. i nodded and released my grip around him, and he left my room, shutting the door softly behind him.

i walked over to the closet and opened the doors. i began to hang up my small selection of clothes; most of them are pajama pants and sweaters, but i have jeans and shorts also. i laid out my three pairs of shoes- an old pair of pink converse, some ugg boots, and some old nike running shoes. seeing that there was a little plastic dresser in the corner of the closet for my socks and stuff, i put my underwear and bras in the top drawer and my fuzzy socks in the bottom. 

the last time i counted my fuzzy socks i had 12 pairs, and i've gotten more since then. after i put them all away, i shut my closet doors and set up my keyboard in the corner of the room. after slipping on a pair of fuzzy socks, i grabbed my phone from where i placed it on my new bed and i trudged down the stairs. 

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it was dinner time, and we were all sitting around the table, eating homemade pizza that connor made us. sam and trevor went home, though, so it was just me, jc, kian, connor, and ricky. i picked a pepperoni off of my small slice and cautiously put it in my mouth, chewing it slowly. i looked up, only to make eye contact with connor, and his face has sympathy written all over it. does he know?

"uh, connor, can i talk to you alone, please?" i stutter out, rising from my seat. jc, kian, and ricky look up from their pizza and connor stands up as well.

"sure," he replies, and i follow him outside. he leads me to a bench, and i sit next to him.

"did alice tell you about my.. my um..," i stutter softly. i hate talking about my eating disorder and everything else that's wrong with me. he nods and rubs my back gently.

"yeah, she mentioned it while you were gathering your things at the orphanage." connor explains, and a tear runs down my rosy cheek. i quickly wipe it away and look down at my striped socks.

"hey," connor says softly, gently lifting up my chin. i look into his eyes and i see the sad expression on his face. 

"i'll help you get through this, and so will the other guys. do you want to tell them or do you want me to?" he asked softly. i tried to swallow the huge lump in my throat, but it didn't work.

"c-can you?" i looked up at him with pleading eyes. he nodded and gave me a reassuring hug. 

"after you finish your pizza, you can just go to your room and i'll tell the guys, alright?" he asked. i nodded quietly and we stood up. he gently grabbed my hand as we walked into the house. i sat down and slowly took small bites of my slice of pizza. it took me 15 minutes, but i finished my pizza. i looked up and made eye contact with connor, and he smiled when he saw my empty plate. i threw the paper plate into the garbage can and quietly walked up the stairs and into my room. i made my way to my keyboard, sitting at the bench and clicking the on button.