ɪ ᴀᴍ ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ

My winter bear 🐻❄️✨

The leaves rustled as the moon shone upon the path as walked on it, no one around. I was out to freshen myself a little from sitting inside the house, all by myself and also because l liked walking at night no one is there. I walked as I adored the mesmerizing view of the moon. I was filling up with this euphoric feeling and I don't why. I was feeling so happy after so many days today. Finally no burden of the work my cold boss gave. I sat on a bench in front of the small lake near my house. The reflection of the moon going perfectly with the lake, the enchanting view that was making me falling for it each second. I looked up at the sky as the cold breeze was brushing against my skin and some strands of my hair in a slight movement due to the breeze. I looked around, my eyes wandering around, searching for a particular constellation amongst the infinite amount of stars that is, Lyra. It looks simple but yet it doesn't fail to attract me. "There you are"I smiled as I moved my finger along the shape of the beautiful constellation. "Isn't it so amazing that I find you so easily every time I search for you? I miss you so much. Before, I couldn't live without you. Now look at me l am all grown up my winter bear. I miss you so much"I started to tear up a little bit at this point. "Is there no way I can go in the past and live those moments again? Go back and save you from that miserable accident? I miss you more than yesterday and less than tomorrow"I stuttered on my last two-sentence, tearing up. "Why did you risk your life for someone like me who doesn't deserve it? Now look I am all alone. Mom left when I was born, dad right after it and then only you and your parents were my last hope. Which is all gone now. "I completely broke down into tears as the memories were flashing through my mind."Aw poor girl what makes you cry so badly? "I gasped as I heard the unfamiliar voice and quickly wiped my tears away. It sounded like a boy who was around my age. I didn't realize when the young man came and sat beside me."Hello? "he said making me look me up to him while I was still sobbing and sniffing. I froze on my actions as I saw his face. Even though half of it was covered with his hair but still he managed to look intimidating. He looks like an absolute angel. He flashed a really cute bunny smile at me as he saw me in complete shock. I was in complete awe for this absolute stranger. But somehow it felt like this is not the first time we ever met."Are you not going to say anything? "he said breaking the awkward silence."I don't even know you what do you want me to say? "I finally replied to him. Well you know if we look into it then there's a lot about,"he said looking into my red and teary eyes with his black and extremely charismatic eyes. I got completely lost in his eyes for a minute but then suddenly came back to reality. "Ok so are you new here? Because I have never seen you here", I enquired. "Well yeah I came here recently. I couldn't sleep for some reason so I thought why not go for a walk and observe my new surroundings"he shrugged his shoulder."Oh great" i replied as I looked back at the reflection of the moon in the lake. "You want to ask me anything else?"He said without moving his gaze from me and moving a strand of hair from my face, his simple touch giving me shivers down my body. He at all felt uncomfortable. It was so calming. "No"I replied "then can I ask you two questions?"he enquired, waiting patiently for a reply while looking into my eyes with his puppy eyes and a cute pout on his face. "Yeah sure,"I said as I tried avoiding his gaze because I was blushing so hard. I was completely enchanted with his flawless beauty. "Look at me"he moved a little closer to me making sure I didn't feel uncomfortable again. He held my chin and turned my face towards his. His touch yet again felt so comfortable and so familiar. A touch have been craving for so many months. "Do you love that person a lot?"he asked, eagerly waiting for a reply. "Is that even a question? I obviously do. More than I love my life. More than I love myself. In fact, there's absolutely no point in loving myself. I am responsible for this I am so guilty there absolutely no sin that can overpower this" tears starting rushing down my cheeks again. He watched me for a sec or two and then immediately embraced me into his warmthness. Again it felt so comfortable.It was not your fault, it was his. He wasn't careful. He didn't take precautions stop blaming and hating on yourself, "he said comforting me"no "I mumbled."Time for the last question, "he said patting my back"yes "I answered."Do you miss him and want him back? "he inquired. I raised my eyebrow in response."How do you know if that person is a he or she? "I enquired."Your time of asking questions is ended and if you do want an answer, then first answer my question "He said a bit sternly but still didn't sound rude."of course I do l am ready to sell my soul to any devil just to meet him "he chuckled while scrunching his nose cutely, just like how ggukie used to do it. This man really gives me ggukie vibes."well it is not possible for him to come back but he's always there for you. On days you hate being yourself, days you want to disappear forever. Days when you hate that you're you, days when you want to disappear Let's make a door in your heart If you open that door and go inside, this place will be waiting for you It's ok to believe, it'll comfort you, this Magic Shop. You might see him around often, but still, he's always with you. Start trying to love yourself, isn't that what he always said? "he asked, his words leaving me in complete shock Well, he used to always ask love myself I don't why."Yes how do you know that? "I said as I forced myself to break the hug and look into his eyes in complete shock. A huge smile displayed on his face and he pecked my forehead"oh my winter bear take my hands now because you are the cause of my euphoria. Let's intertwine our pinkies, and promise each other. You are my end and my beginning "he said as he stood up and started walking backwards towards the darkness while his fingers running through his black, soft and silky hair, giving me a clearer view of his face. He was just smiling brightly. It was none other than my, ggukie? My eyes immediately filled with tears again as I couldn't believe what I just saw and heard. I was filled with various emotions at once. And the lines he said were always delivered by ggukie, making me believe that it definitely was him"g -ggukie? I managed to speak while stuttering. "I am sorry"I stuttered again. He shook his head side side gesturing me that he didn't want to hear that but something else. He just smiled brightly and said "I love you"and suddenly disappeared into the darkness. "GGUKIE"I screamed as my eyes opened widely while I was breathing heavily and sweating. I looked around and realized that I was in my room. I looked at my pendant which he gifted me and I have been preserving since years then held it tightly while glancing at our photo frame beside my bed. "It was just a dream?"I picked up the picture while bringing it closer to me as I said, "oh my winter bear take my hands now cause you are the cause my euphoria. Let's intertwine our pinkies, and promise each other. You are my end and my beginning"and smiled.