A Very Divine Intervention

Mystery Spot

"What are you going to do?" Sila asked, watching Gabriel jump around giddily at the plan he had thought up.

It was still weird to her when it came to reacting to her new name. Not that Gabriel had actually used her real name more than twice. Funnily enough, the name God had given her this time around had been as much of an abomination as her last had been. Sliczny... It had been a bad joke but at least the nickname part of her life had stayed the same even when nothing else had.

Being a woman was different. Really, all the hormones were going to be the death of her and Gabriel both and she wouldn't even think about the periods... It was horror and considering the fact that she had only been a girl for a little over three months, she was sure that she was doing great. Not that she had been very accepting at the beginning.

Her mental health had suffered a lot from the whole mess and nothing she did was helping. More and more often she was waking up already in the middle of a panic attack. The coupled thoughts of demons being able to take over her body and the Nogitsune while seeing herself kill all of her friends one after the other was slowly eating away at her. Oh, she was aware that it hadn't been her personally who had killed most of her pack, but she was magic... She should have been able to help them. If Deaton hadn't been as much of an ass, he could have taught her enough to defend herself and the pack. Instead, he just watched as everyone died.

"Sila," Gabriel called out, crouching down in front of her "Hey... Come on."

"I'm fine," Sila murmured, brushing off his hands. They felt wrong. So wrong... wrong... Everything was wrong. She swallowed a couple of times, gazing out of the window "I'm – It's fine, Gabe."

Gabriel sighed before going to stand next to her "Sila, you have to talk to someone," he murmured "If not to me, then to someone else. You're going to kill yourself if you're not careful. Please... You're my friend – I don't want to lose you."

Sila looked over at him, seeing the pleading look on his face. Her shoulders dropped "Gabe, I..."

"Sila," he cut her off, taking her hands in his "You went through a crap ton of stuff that I really wish you didn't have to go through, but you can't change it now. The only thing you can hope is to achieve a better future for the people who haven't gone through everything yet."

"But why should I?" she exclaimed, going to wave her hands around frantically. Gabriel didn't let her, though. Instead, he kept a firm hold on her hand "Why me? Why is it always me? I just want to be left alone." She hesitated for a moment before continuing "Did I ever tell you that the spell I did was supposed to kill me? I didn't want to survive going back in time. I didn't want to go through everything again. Gerard, Kate, the Nogitsune, the Apocalypse... Leviathans... Every single thing that caused the world to go to hell. I don't want to be the only one who can change that. What if I mess it up? Gabe, so much can go wrong and I don't think I can do this..."

Gabriel looked at her with sad eyes. He knew that it was hard for her. The burden she was carrying was... too much for a girl her age. She was just twenty-four after all and after the life she led... He didn't understand why his father had chosen her. While Gabriel was glad that he had met her, he often wished that she could go back to a normal life. Without nightmares. The number of times he had woken up to her screaming or frantically counting... He still remembered the first time he had seen her like that.

Gabriel walked into the kitchen at night to grab a hot chocolate. Normally, he would just snap it up but he felt like following ritual right now. He wasn't quite sure what had woken him up but as soon as he caught sight of the kitchen, his jaw dropping at all the treats "What the hell?" He looked around and hurried over when he found Sila sleeping against one of the cabinets "Sila."