Sweet symphony (Jadon Sancho)

Part 34

Jadon pov
I go back to the hotel where the rest of the lads are and they are all eager to hear how she is and what happened.

I feel numb as I walk down the corridor to my room.

All the lads stood outside my door

"What happened? is she okay?" They all ask

I shake my head and break down into tears

"She's" I start

"She's gone" I say as Reiss quickly pulls me into a hug.

"She's dead guys. She is never coming back" I sob as I hug Reiss.

"Oh bro we are so so sorry"

"Where is Elijah?" I ask sniffling as I end my hug with Reiss

"He's in there with raheem" Reiss says as he points to my door

"Okay thanks" I say as I slowly open the door.

"Do you want me to come in?" Reiss asks

"No thanks I just need to be alone" I say as I enter my room and close the door behind me

"Hey how is she? Elijah hasn't moved around at all, he's sound asleep" Raheem says with a big smile on his face

"She's, Gone" I say and shake my head looking to the floor.

"What?" He asks shocked as he covers his mouth with his hand

"She died Raheem" I say trying to keep my tears back

"Oh my god come here" he says as he hugs me just like Reiss did

"I'm sorry Raz but I would just like to be alone right now" I say sadly

"It's okay I understand, if you need me let me know" he says reassuringly as he leaves my room

As soon as he leaves I break down on the floor in floods of tears until I hear Elijah making noises

I make my way over to where he's sleeping

"Daddy" he says holding his arms out so I pick him up and sit on my bed with him, clutching him

"I love you little man" I say to him hugging him tightly as I cry into his hair.

I just keep thinking how she was just here and now she's gone.

Forever.

I'll never see her again

I'll never feel her again

I'll never hear her voice again

She's gone forever and I don't think it will ever properly sink in with me.

I wish I could call her right now.

It all happened so quick.

I feel like I let her down as she should've never have thought drugs and alcohol was the solution.

The doctors told me she died of drug overdose and alcohol poisoning.

It makes me so sad to think she was dealing with so much and thought that was her only option out of it.

I wish I could've got her to open up or I'd seen her struggles earlier.

I hope Dani and Hollie are pleased. This is their fault.

I feel Elijah has gone asleep on me so I decide to put him back to bed.

I sit on the floor against the hotel door and open Spotify on my phone.