Do I have to? Miraculous Fanfic~Adrien POV

Chapter 1: Photoshoots And Chloe

24.11.2018

I've heard that keeping a diary can reveal stress! So... I decided it would be a good idea to start one! Sadly, nothing gets past my father, so I have to keep it well out of sight.

Plagg disapproves of my choice, saying its dangerous to keep every single one of your secrets on a piece of paper. I just shrugged at him. I did say I'd be careful and I will keep my word.

Although he definitely still doesn't trust me to keep it.

But I won't focus on that for very long.

Atleast my diary won't yell at me like Plagg does. I don't think that would relieve stress at all.

I could hear Plagg scoff as he hovered above my shoulder. I didn't think he could read. Again, he saw me write this and decided it would be a good idea to whack me over the head with his paw. It's not like he could destroy the whole of Paris with a single breath. Not at all.

Anyways, why not start the diary off with a banger. Sarcasm intended. I absolutely hate the photoshoots my dad makes me go to. It's just not My thing.

I'm not really sure what I want to do when I grow up, but it definitely isn't modeling. My extended career in it was already starting to falter due to my temper growing. I don't think anyone has really noticed yet.

They don't pay a lot of attention to me. They just like seeing my smile. They can't see its fake. I could say I'm a master at fake smiles. Would that be bragging? I can't tell.

That's the thing! Due to my "Sheltered Upbringing," as everyone calls it, I don't know any social ques! I'm clueless at everything!

Chloe was my only friend. And even I stopped visiting her after... Mom disappeared. She had just vanished. Father and I were distraught. Ever since then, he's just been... Distant. That's the word.

If that's possible, I started to miss Chloe. Her mother had just left her to go to New York. She was going through the same experience. I could say we needed each other. But without my company, she also grew distant. And Cold. Cold.

I don't think there's much I can do for her now. I don't like to think about it but she is a lost cause.

Ladybug kind of acts as though there's a way to help her before she goes worse. But with what happened just a few days ago, she and I had realised that it was truly pointless.

She disregarded what little friendship she had with Ladybug and I and sided with Hawkmoth. It's hard to say that that didn't hurt me.

She definitely changed.

Not for the better. She almost got worse after her mother came back. She was filled with spite because her parents had loved each other once more. I dont know what to do with that girl.

How Ladybug handles her is a mystery.

We had tried to help her. We really did. But it was never enough.