Do I have to? Miraculous Fanfic~Adrien POV

Chapter 2 Friends And Akumas

25.11.2018

Dear Diary
So, another day has passed and I'm back writing in this thing. I hope Nathalie nor Gorilla find me writing in my diary. It'd be the end of me and my secret.

Today was a pretty good day. There wasn't much important to state. Mr Pigeon was akumatised again, right when I thought he'd chosen another animal. I suppose he must love them too much for the time being.

Mr Ramier really likes pigeons. Today had been the 24th time that he'd been a victim to hawkmoth. This time must have been one of his better days. He actually took four minutes to beat. New record after the first time I'd say.

Mr Pigeon had mostly gone after civilians, knowing that that was what Ladybug didn't want to get hurt the most. I daresay he's getting smarter.

Alya was one of the people targeted, the one who runs the ladyblog. Ladybug and her must be pretty good friends outside the Ladyblog because she was adamant on helping her and taking hits for her.

I didn't know Alya and her were so close. She WAS chosen by her to be Rena Rouge, but I never really saw them as friends. I thought ladybug just saw her as reliable.

I won't question it further, I guess it isn't too surprising. Alya DID write and entire blog, updated daily, about her, surely that'd create a friendship between them.

I'm not even close enough with Alya to protect her like that and she's my classmate. She's a pretty good friend. If you ask her to keep secrets, she won't share them. That must be why she became Rena Rouge.

I'm pretty close with most of my classmates. I still remember clearly when a few of my guy friends had come to the mansion uninvited, simply because my father had been in Tokyo for fashion week.

That was a very eventful day. Master Fu was there, My photographer, Andre and a lot of others were there. I remember them turning on StationNation to the highest volume possible. They all danced, that was when we realised Marinette was there.

We were shocked for a moment, before something else came up. Wayhem had been akumatised into Party Crasher.

Wayhem is a pretty good friend. Although he is a bit "obsessed" if I may so myself, with me. He always takes every chance possible to tlak with me. I feel as if it's a one sided friendship. He always does everything for me and I don't give anything back.

It makes me feel pretty upset, I don't know how friends are meant to act but not like this. I feel like Chloe treating Sabrina this way.

And darn, I do NOT want to compared to Chloe at the moment.

She chose siding with Hawkmoth to being with Ladybug HER IDOL. I thought she was my friend. But I don't think that's true anymore. She still clings on to me at school, I really should tell her that 1. I'm not interested and 2. I don't want to be her friend anymore.

I'm not excited to tell her, we knew each other since we were toddlers. But if I don't tell her, it would be like lying to her.

I might ask Ladybug what to do. Vaguely of course, she might find out my identity, even if there isnt much of a high chance of that occurring. As much as I want her to know my identity, I have to respect her wishes.

Yeah. I'll ask Ladybug. She always has the right idea at the right time, which is why I love her.

And theres Plagg, hovering over my shoulder,  teasing me about Ladybug, I cant help my feelings. He promised to keep guard and tell me if anyone walks in on me writing.

Every time I want to go to sleep, Ladybug crosses my mind, I can't say I hate it but I can't say I love it either. I've told her my feelings, but she's rejected me. I won't stop loving her. I honestly cant. Maybe if she sees who I actually am, she might change her mind. Everyone loves "flawless little model boy."

What am I talking about? Ladybug isn't like that! She definitely wouldn't love people based on looks and wealth. I regret that thought.

I can't help but wonder who she truly is. And who she truly likes.

Anyways, bye for now Diary. I'll write in here some more if anything happens later on.