I thought I wanted to be better
I thought I changed for the good
Then I missed the pain
The feelings came back
Didn't you see expressions I made
Memories being replayed
The feelings growing stronger
I loved this pain
I was feeling too num
I thought that It was happiness
Just going along thinking that everything was okay
Till one day
Clearly it was not
It made me feel more empty and pathetic then before
Hate and judgement made me who I am
Forgetting who I was
Till I forgot all together
I am the girl with a secret to hide
I am the girl who will never heel
I am the girl who no one knows
