ITS CHOICE OR FATE

jealousy and anger

Jasmine's:-

Seeing her with him , temper were rising I  just pulled john towards me making him startled. He asked me what happened?  I just gave him glare and make him seat with me. The girl gives me confuse look but I totally ignore her. He is still looking at me with confusing look I just told him the meeting is about to start so seat. He nodded ,I dent know why I am behaving like that but I just don't like how he is talking to her and smiling. After meeting ended I told him to wait because I have to clear the thing with  him and move for washroom . I never expected the view which I just witnessed .coming from washroom to meeting room I saw that girl pushed john towards the wall and put her one hand on wall her lips was just a inch apart from his lips and he not even pushed her instead of pusing her away he continuously staring in her  eyes and giving him playful look . I suddenly made knock on the door this made him look at me .he was trying to say me something but I just took my stuff and ran from that place. Tear  were keep on falling I just don't know but I felt betrayed. It's not that I am in a relationship with him but still it made me angry I just don't know anything but it's just making it worse these feeling .yes this feeling I never wanted to feel this type of feeling  ,i always keep myself away . But I ended up with this heartbreaking feelings .I always prefer bus because its helps me to save more money but today I had taken TAXI .without looking back I just seated inside the taxi and leave.john was  calling my name from behind but I don't want to talk to him .not now because I  was so angry that it can cause some major problems between us . Because he doesn't know my feelings towards him  until now I also didn't realize my feeling but seeing him with someone else made me question my feelings towards him. I want to clear my thoughts first .I cannot force my feelings on him. Thinking about the which had happened today making me restless, how can I act like a heartbroken girl . I  just told myself that i was so engaged with him recently  .this made things worse so I have to distance myself from him, I don't want to feel something like that again . My phone ring this call is from john I don't want to pick the call but I don't want to worry him so I just pick the phone
Hello

Hey jasmine, I want to tell you something about today ,what you...

I just cut him in between àand told him its really doesn't matter want happened today, there is nothing between us so you don't have to explain to me . And I am happy that you have someone who loves you.

But listen jasmine

Okay bye its getting late I will meet you tomorrow, goodnight.
I don't want to listen his stuff  ,its make more trouble, create more confusion  . Listening his love story his not what I want right now.

I totally distance myself from him in every possible way we meet sometimes like in meeting and in seminars  but I always keeps distance and avoid to talk to him . But regret it afterwards ,I always feels that he want to say something which is important to him . I always catch him staring at me his eyes  were like ocean so much things were there concern,love ,hurt,longing. I always got lost in those eyes ,I don't but I want to make everything fine between us but whenever I see that girl with him I take my steps back i don't wanna ruin someone happiness for me . But i hate him how can his eyes look at me like that way like he only wants me , just asking my permission .

Our club has planning to show our work which we had done in this 3 months because the 5 group of people from a welfare company coming to confirm that we are using there funds appropriately. So work has divided among everyone I had to make presentation, the presentation which includes every single detail about and charity we had done. Because of this presentation I had to be in college . Mostly we leave after 5 at evening.  Today is the 3rd day of our preparations day .My atmost work were finished before deadline so I just kept my laptop aside and went to buy coffee for myself . I find john was also sitting on the table with that girl her name is emily , I came to know about her yesterday from tina she told that girl is  john 's sister  bestfriend so john has to treat her well . He loves her sister so much so he tried to complete her every wish and her sister asked him to date this girl atleast 6 month if Emily failed to bring any feelings for herself then he can stop seeing her.thinking of this made me even more sad if she wins his love then hugh that girl made me sick. The counter boy asked me what I want ?this bring me back from my thoughts i just ordered coffee for myself and sat on the table which is empty.  Taking Slip from my coffee. I was checking my phone but my all focus were on the table were john and emily were sitted .she just can't put her hand with herself her one hand is on john's thighs . She is such a tease . How can john control himself infront of such beauty who is continuously inviting him . That it now I can't see anymore I  headed towards the washroom leaving my more than half coffee. When I was about to enter in the washroom suddenly someone pulled me inside the classroom which Is completely dark ,closing door behind me . I was scared to death  but somehow I managed to raise my head to see who is messing with me . Here I got panicked because he was none other than john who is looking at me in anger .he was coming slowly near me and I was automatically taking my steps back until I was stopped by wall behind me from moving. his one hand forcefully bang on wall that made me more scared. I asked him  whatttt are you  do ...ing  in stuttering way . He shouted why ?by raising his voice .I gave him confusing look by trying to push him but instead of getting back he came more close to me and  taken my one  hand by  banging on wall and  the other my hand fold it with his second hand .now I was completely in control of him . I tried every way to push him but his hold only got tied . With tear in eyes I asked him what he wants? Without saying anything he connected his lips with mine. This was so rough I didn't imagined my first kiss would be like this,without even my concern. As he leave me I  was breathless , taking my time to stable myself then I slapped him hard asked him why are you doing? He pulled me towards him and then told me that he punished me for my mistake. Huhhh really what mistake I had done that I deserved such kind of behaviour.  And you already have someone who is your side then how dare you to kiss me huh ?I shouted back. He was dumbfounded. After sometime he pulled me towards him by my waist , but I love you not her .she is just matter of 6 months .

What are you trying to say you want to date two person  at same time huhh I replied .

I am not saying that but I have no choice

You have just leave me fucking alone get it

No way i love you

If you ever loved me then you have never agreed to date her by saying his I left the room .

Sitting on my bed remember everything which happened it just made me more sad I just can't handle this type of feeling, I never wanted to get in middle of anyone it's  frustrating . I don't to be the reason to ruin someone's relationship . This breaking my peace . I had never imagined that this type of situation I am going to face in my life . I can't get together with someone whom I love because he already dating someone damn . And why the hell I now also feel His toughness on my lips .his hot breath is still make goosebumps on my body.