Choices (Shisui x Reader MODERN)

Chapter 3: Harmless?

*GASLIGHTING AND SLIGHT PHYSICAL & PSYCHOLIGCAL ABUSE (I.E. MANIPULATION.) WARNING. READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION. *

"If you need anything alright? Don't hesitate to reach me."

A knock at the door snapped you out of your thoughts.

"(y/n) open the door...please." Ben's voice called out through the other side of the door.

Letting out a tired sigh knowing you couldn't just walk out with the card in your hand, you placed it back in the pants you previously had on. Planning to retrieve it in the morning.

After brushing your teeth and washing your make up off, you open the door to see your fiancé back in bed. "Baby."

You rolled your eyes and crawled into bed facing away from him and reaching to turn off the light when a hand grabbed yours and turned you on your back. You reluctantly look up and saw Ben hovering over you.

"I'm sorry okay I just love you and you not saying anything worried me. Just check in with me and I won't freak out."

"Like you check in with me." You answered annoyed looking towards your wardrobe, where there was a photo of you and Ben on your first date. He had longer hair then and he wasn't as demanding and rude as he was as of late. Happier times?

"Hey, quit being such a pain okay? I already apologized. Don't make me regret it."

You scoffed and gave him your back. "Whatever Ben."

Ben placed his hand under your chin and made you look back at him.

"You're testing how nice I'm being to you." He warned in an unsettling tone.

Looking into his stare, you could only see his empty blue eyes. Eyes that once meant the world to you and made your heart race in willful anticipation for whatever the world had in store for you both. Now, they made your heart race for a different reason. You searched his eyes for any miniscule fragment of remorse, empathy, or love; but you found none.

You sighed, inwardly cursing for the little time you'd have to sleep and the inevitable hangover you would go to work with...on only your second day. "Fine. I'm sorry. You're right."

*I need to pretend here if I'm going to get any sleep.*

You grabbed his hand from under your chin and kissed the back of his hand.

Ben smiled at you and brought you to his chest.

For the first time, it didn't bring you a sense of security. You couldn't put your finger on it, but it wasn't good. And all you could do was hope you were wrong...

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Before you knew it, it was the next morning. It felt as if you had blinked, and then your alarm woke you up.

Groggily you unplugged your phone while glancing back. Ben was knocked out and facing away from you. You took this opportunity to text Genma to let him know you got home safe since your phone was dead and you didn't really have a chance last night to do so.

You stood up to stretch, instantly regretting it as your head started to hurt. You held your head with one hand, using the other to skim through your clothing options. Slightly smiling as you remembered you didn't have to wear anything too flashy.

Settling on a pair of ankle-length blue washed jeans, some slip-on sneakers, and (f/c) V-neck T shirt. You lazily slipped on your clothes and went to the bathroom to try and make it look like you didn't just crawl out of hell. With the little energy you had, you decided on a quick shower and just brushing through your locks, brushing your teeth, and some concealer.