Grayson Asher has always been close to JJ,even being a run away place and hide away from his father. But,as John ask for his friends held in finding his father,all Grayson could think,that if JJ gets in trouble during this,he will be hurt.
Grayson Asher knew that mixing drugs and alcohol was a terrible idea. But it was the fact that he had to tell his friends something,and could only tell them while drunk.
As for the drugs,he had just wanted something to numb the feelings. Maybe it was possible they wouldn't see just how sad he was.
Graysonturned his head,possibly to quickly see how the world seemed to be spinning. His mind being to messed up and scrambled to think of anything. He probably should had thought of what he was going to say and how he was going to say it. "Do...you guys ever feel like there's something that should always be kept a secret?"
His friends turned to him,tilting their heads. Their hands stopping with their movements. JJ's hand simply holding the can,Pope's hand tilting a bit with the cigarette in his hand,John B.'s hand stopped his poking at the fire,and Kiara's hand stops their movement in his hair.
It was quite for a moment,all of them thinking. "Well,maybe. Certain things Yeah. Like,a murder that you or your friend committed."
Grayson laughed at JJ's response,turning to the rest of his friends,seeing that Pope was about to speak. "Any crime you've committed,especially if you've committed the crime against a Kook."
The hands went back to stroking his hair,him leaning into the feeling. "If you have feelings for a Kook." He glanced up at Kiara,letting out a small laugh then looked towards John B,who shrugged. "With your friends,with us,nothing. You can tell us anything and everything"
Grayson swallowed,his throat and mouth being dry now. "And...what if the secret as to do with something that you like someone who people would judge you for?" Kiara raised an eyebrow. "If it's about a Kook,I stick to my earlier statement."
JJ had said something completely different. "If it's a Kook,I don't care who,as long as it's not any of the annoying girls."
Pope nodded,agreeing,but John B. didn't reply,instead asking if Grayson was alright. "Gray,are you okay?"
Grayson's hands reached up,covering his face. He felt Kiara move,feeling eyes on him. "Dude,are you okay?"
"Would you guys ever hate me?" He let his hands on his,as if just because he covered his face they couldn't tell he was crying. "No,why'd we hate you? We couldn't and wouldn't ever hate you."
Grayson hadn't even realized that his friends had moved closer,now surrounding him. And although his hand were in his face,he felt a hand rest on his fore-head. "Would you guys...if I told you..."
He hadn't expected for anyone to speak,much less hear just how concerned they would be. "You really are scaring me now. Are you okay?"
The boy dragged his hands across his face,revealing how his eyes were red,from trying to not cry. 'Just say it,fast and quick'. "I'm gay."
It was quick for a moment,when JJ broke the silence,his hand slapping Grayson's shoulder. "Idiot,you made me think you were sick and dying!"
Kiara looked up,glaring at JJ. "JJ! Shut up! He's emotional!" The boy looked confused,which JJ and Kiara didn't notice as she was busy lecturing him. "So,you don't care?"
They shrugged,nodding their heads. "We don't care. Why would you think we'd hate you cause you were gay?"
Grayson looked down,fiddling with his hands. "Before my mother left,I told her I was gay. She wasn't happy. She went on and on about how I'm going to hell and that she always knew I was a mistake."
It was quite,as they all remember the day his mother left. Then,he continued. "She slapped me. And my dad came in,angry. She said I was sick in the head.She started yelling,saying she couldn't have me as a son and I had to leave."
Kiara always knew she didn't like Grayson's mother. "She said it was her or me. My father had just gone into their room and threw a bag with her stuff in it at her." He chuckled,remembering the face of his mother when his father had done that. "My father-after she was gone-looked so sad. I thought it was cause he regretted kicking her out. But,he said 'I can't believe I married her'. He then made a joke,saying that at least now,he could threaten whoever it was I was dating."
John B smiled,not sure of what to say. None of them where sure what to say. When,JJ,spoke up. "Well,at least tell me you don't like Topper or Rafe."
Grayson looked up,smiling. In his head thinking 'I like you',but never saying it. "I don't like any of the Kooks."
He heard JJ breathe out,pretending to be worried. "Good,because if you did,then you'd be sick in the head." JJ smiled,and Grayson smiled back,not able to look away nor did he want to look away.
