Chapter 1
The living and the dead both have a story to tell, each person has something different to share. My name is Lia I live way out in the country, far from human contact so yes it does affect my social life. I am 17 years old and still struggle to make friends probably doesn't help that everytime I even get a chance to talk to someone i always end up talking about cows guts and gross everyone out. I seemed to ruin everything with that whole cow talk and yes no-one likes me for it. I still write everynight in my dairy since I was like 12 or something i guess thats when I realized how different I was and am.I mean everything about me is different seriously I have long brown hair with hazel blue eyes im not popular at school and all i seem to do is make life worse for me but hey im me.
Heading to the pools one hot summer day, I walked out into the changing rooms that lead off to the right of the swimming pool. And gazed across to the entrance of the pool and there they all were the people i dreaded and hated with every inch of my body. Then I walked along the the sides of the pool before jumping into it. I placed my towel and clothes along side the benches where i was sure they would be safe. I keeped thinking why would someone be so horrible to someone who just wanted to help and how could they be such a bitch after they had done everything they could to make sure her bestfriend was happy. All i ended up feeling like doing was screaming across the pool " You bitch!, how could you do that to me" but i held it in and keeped trying to enjoyed the lovely day in a nice cool pool.
After about an hour and a half I looked over to my things and saw that they were gone. I jumped out of the pool and ran towards the bench searching endlessly for them. And thats when it happened the tears just started streaming down my face I hated it, that people could be so cruel and mean to me, I did nothing to them they just decided to make my life a living hell. I sat there for a further 2 hours it began to get dark the sun was setting and i just sat there crying and thinking of everything while i tried to figure out how i was gonna get home and what everyone was gona do....laugh at me... I started to head out the pool gate.and then I heard someone calling my name.
"Lia" Lia wait! wait!!"
I looked over my shoulder wiping my tears away muting yes under my breath.
"Lia, are these are yours" with a smile haha hes such a jerk.
Yes I replied, god whos else are they im the only one walking out of the gate with my TOGS on.
"where were they" "and what the hell are you doing here" then i saw his girlfriend, yeahp the hottest chick out Well at least that's what every-ones saying. So much for loving me forever haha what a joke.
"aww just in the males changing rooms" "yeah they were just shoved under one of the toilet doors" thats when his girlfriend laughed and looked at me like 'haha shame on you'I hated her already just because of that.
"yeah so see you round i suppose"
"bye Mike" i said solfly
The bus ride home was so long and lonely, there were only five other people on the bus that evening. I just laid back against the seat looking out the window, looking at everyone as I took the last few seconds before leaving town and only seeing country side fews. Just a glimse was lefted before it faded into the distance too. I keeped looking back at my memeories and just tried to hold my tears back thinking of how lonely it is without him, I knew that Mike had moved on but i hadn't. Still pretending that I don't care anymore. Knowing deep down i could never.
By the time I got home it was pretty late and everyone was asleep so i went to my room looked at my phone and hope that he text but no. I should have learnt by now its completely over I can't keep doing this so I turned it off and went to sleep. Trying to forget today.
