It's a Mad World

And It Continues

So It's Christmas. I've gotten the tablet that I'm writing this on right now.I opened my dads presents on Christmas Eve. I got a camo jacket and Paris bedding. The things I love are so diverse. One minute I am the girliest girl in the world and then the next i'm the roughest tomboy out there. I guess that's why my family calls me a prissy tomboy which is basically country. I've also gotten camo pants and shirts. I've gotten movie tickets and other things. I'm grateful for what I'll get with my mom, but tbh these gifts are meaningless. If they burned or remained, I'd still be alive. They're just material things. In my opinion, the most important things in the world are the things you can't touch like love. How do you contain love? Well that's the problem. You can't. Just like the world, love is a beautiful but cruel thing. It can make you smile, then break you down and make you bawl your eyes out at midnight wandering what the heck is happening. But idk where I would be without it. My exes are a part of me whether I like it or not. I'm stronger because of them. And being with them has led to me know that the current relationship I am is going right. We fight, but I am happy with him. He makes me happy. Sometimes he hurts me but the moments of happiness are so much sweeter and for those moments i forget the cruelty of the world. I guess that's why they say love makes you blind. Whether you're dead or alive, the world goes on with or without you. So I'm going to make the best out of my life. I'm going to take risks and love, because if i don't i miss out on way more than playing it safe. "The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all." - December 25, 2014 midnight