The maknaes of roommate (jackji fanfic)

Chapter seven : who does she care about more?

Jackson POV:
I stayed quiet for most of the time, I wish my family were here on this day, I mean I'm thankful for my JYP brothers being here, but I really wish my parents were here, what's the point of wishing if they can never come. Halfway through the conversation, I made sure to smile and talk a bit so people wouldn't notice my sadness today. A mother walked up to me and gave me a scarf, she was so nice, I am grateful but not really happy for I still missed my mother, I felt like these gifts were out of pity for me. After the meals, when we went into the main living room to perform.

I couldnt really enjoy myself throughout the performances, I tried reacting as much as I could but I couldnt seem to as much.

After trying to send a video message to my mom, I forgot everything in between but I saw my mom. My hands trembled and I dropped whatever was in my hand and I walked towards my mom.

"Mom I love you so much, can we please stay in this hug, please don't ever let me go, I wanna go where ever you go, live here with me or I can go to Hong Kong with you" as soon as my mother touched me, thoughts like those went through my head.

Youngji POV:
I saw Jackson walk towards his mom and cried together, I cried too of course but I cried longer than I should have.

I said I cared about Jackson, that I wanted to keep him safe. All he wanted was a chance for us but I ended up pushing him away, seeing him happy like this, crying, it made me feel so guilty for not trying to make him happy, all the times we argued, the times I ignored him, I felt so bad, even though his fans hate me, it didn't matter, all that mattered in this moment and should matter for more is Jackson being happy, I honestly never realized how much he struggled. Sunny eonni once told me to comfort jackson and stay by his side, and make sure he's alright. I've done an absolute horrible job. I neglected somebody who care about me, and I'm scared, I'm so so scared to hold on to him because that means I can lose him, that's why I never held on, so I could never lose him. The way Jackson looked at his mom, he had once looked at me like that.

I walked to a different part of the room and covered my mic and started whispering to myself, no I'm not crazy, I do this so then I can keep things to myself.

"Jackson-Ah, I'm so sorry that I let you suffer, I, sorry I didn't listen, I should've listened, I didn't know you were in so much pain, I'm so sorry." I quickly whispered

Kangjun POV:
I don't know why, but my tears couldn't come, I as an actor fake cried and I saw Nana do the same, we stayed emotionless while tears fell, but real ones came when I saw Youngji crying. She cried to the point she couldn't breathe, if I didn't know any better I would say she's crying as hard as Jackson.

Jackson POV:
Still trembling, the roommates introduced themselves, when it was Youngjis turn, I didn't notice until now but her eyes are very red and poofy, she bowed 90 degrees and introduced herself calling herself my best friend and then seho Hyeong butted in and said "youngji korean girl friend" I laughed and youngji did too, she didn't deny it? I'll have to talk to her later.

Kangjun POV:
Jackson has his mom, youngji likes jackson again, there's nothing for me. I'm alone. I sat quietly while the people who didn't have family talked pretending to be happy, but I wasn't in any mood to act. I went to go sleep in my room and texted Youngji.

Me: Youngji are you alright?
Youngji : yeah oppa, why?
Me: I mean, you were crying an awful lot when Jackson met his mom, and you didn't deny when Seho Hyeong said you two were dating, I'm sure something is up.
Youngji: why do you care?
Me: well, I'm just wondering and curious that's all
Youngji: well, I guess we didn't feel like saying anything at the moment?
Me: and why did Jacksons mom act like she knew you, and her father was so respectful?
Youngji: look Kangjun, I don't know okay? And I don't know why you're acting like this either, you're usually not like this Oppa
Me: I- I'm- nevermind, sorry, just get back to what you were dealing with. Forget I said anything
Youngji: okay oppa, goodnight
Me: how did you know I was in my room?

I looked out and the door slightly closed a bit, she's worried about me?