i've never known how it feels like to experience butterflies in my stomach, to experience nervousness while talking,until i saw him.
he was what others would say, the epitome of beauty. with his perfectly sculpted face and a defined jawline, his dark grey orbs would pierce into my soul whenever we made eye contact.
it was something that i never expected to happen. how i fell in too deep when all i am to him, is a nobody.
how can i compare to the countless of girls in campus when all i am was nobody special but just a normal girl who tend to avoid being in the limelight.
i thought of just giving up on him. after all, we had no chance of communication until that one fateful morning.
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the sun shone brightly as i was heading to school. it was just another
day at eastview high. nothing special , nothing new. that was until a rumour about a new student coming reached my ears.
"hopefully he's handsome!" one of the popular girls said
"no. i hope it's a girl. that way i can ask her for her number." one of the popular boys said.
when the doors opened, all voices ceased. it was as if someone of high status has arrived. in walked, an unfamiliar face. his eyes looked around the unfamiliar environment before landing on me. and let me tell you , i was blown away. i have never imagined that a human being could look as good as he did. with his dark grey eyes that looked deeply into me as if he was scrutinising me. he titled his head to the side and frowned before looking away.
i was confused. it was as if he knew something i didn't. but who am i kidding, how was this possible when it was the first time that i've seen him.
—— months later——
i never thought that i'll be one that became shy around the person i liked. i would have understood if it was simply just nervousness. but this feeling has made me so awkward that i was stuttering every single time i talked to him.
its been 6 months since he has been here. i started feeling something a month or so after he arrived. it may have been the attention he's been giving me and i was loving it. he gives quick glances once in awhile as i try to avoid making eye contact. i could not look into his eyes or i'll freeze.
you see, i've tried avoiding him. yet everywhere i went, he was there. we took the same classes with breaks in between where i quickly rush off.
why? why did i have to fall for someone that i know i'll never have? there's countless of girls after him yet he paid no attention to them. was i like one of those girls to him?
— heading to class —
class was starting in 10 minutes and i just entered the classroom. there was no one , as expected. i arrived early everyday to avoid seeing him. i was trying to give up on my feelings for him. after all, we'll never have a chance. i've seen him with his friends, smiling so happily as if there was nothing that bothered him. yet, i've never noticed the longing in his eyes as i was never confident enough to maintain eye contact for more than a second.
i knew he always came in a few minutes after classes began. today however, he entered a few minutes after i did ,making him early for once.
only the two of us were in class and i felt the awkward tension rising. until he broke it.
"hey.." he trailed off.
i looked up at him the moment i heard his voice to see his mouth opening and closing, as if he couldn't get something out.
"this is the longest that you've looked at me." he continued
i was shooketh. i didn't realised that he paid attention to this.
"i-uh" i started.
"it's alright. i just need to get this off my chest. i know you may not feel the same, but i like you. i saw you on the first day and knew then, that you were the one. i realised.. that you kept avoiding me so i suppose i got my answer. i didn't realise until recently that you were her. you were the one that i've been looking for ever since that night where you just left.. without saying a single word of goodbye. i only found out because you did the same things you used to before you left... i visited your mother and she said you lost your memory after a car accident. i'm sad that you don't remember me but at least you're safe." he ended.
as he finished, i felt like something was broken inside of me as memories began to flash in my mind one by one. i held my head and bent down as my head was hurting too much from the burst of memories.
"are you okay?!" he said quickly while rushing over to my side.
"you're okay. you're okay." he repeated.
when the pain was gone, i looked up at him, who was still holding me in his arms.
"ty....?" i whispered out.
"you remembered?" he replied instantly with a smile on his face.
a sight to see if you ask.
"w-wait" i quickly said as he stood up suddenly.
"i n-need to say some t-things too." i quickly added as he looked back at me, waiting for me to continue.
"you see. e-even though i didn't know you well the past few months. but i f-found myself s-somehow l-liking you. i was just s-surprised that you felt the same way b-because i n-never expected s-someone l-like you to l-like me." i stuttered out nervously.
"i" he went speechless.
"then would you be my-" he was cut off as everyone started filing into the classroom.
he gave me a "we'll talk later" look before heading off too his seat.
i suppose this didn't turn out too bad. after all, something that i once deemed as impossible, became possible.
and the rest, was history.
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this be kinda badly written 🤨
i have no idea what i'm writing and i'm sure i went off topic 🤪 like what.
so its like a one shot book hehe. i swear this doesn't even depict love EOFJEH
we'll see if this goes well. also, i'm an extremely inactive writer i would say, which is why i decided im better off writing one shots 🥳
do read "betrayal" if you would! its sorta my first uh short story.....?
feel free to comment if you spot any grammatical errors.
thank you!
till then.
