~𝘕𝘖𝘙𝘔𝘈𝘓~

~1~

⚠️trigger warning ⚠️
Self harm
Bullying
Rape

"Mom I'm- I'm trans, I'm not a girl I'm a boy" kenma explained to his mother

"No your not!your a girl! If you even think about wanting to be a boy you'll get it" his mother screamed back with a look of terror on her face

"But I don't wanna be a girl I-" kenma couldn't finish his sentence before his mother smacked him in the face

Kenma bolted up right from the nightmare he had just had, well less like a nightmare, more of a flashback. He turned to his side to look at the clock '5:55𝘢𝘮' kenma sighed, he had to get up soon anyway so what would be the use of going back to bed, he stood up and walked towards the bathroom. He looked at himself in the mirror, he didn't have his binder on so his breasts were sticking out, it made him feel terrible. He stripped down trying not to look at himself as he stepped into the shower, he looked down at his body 'disgusting' he through as he reached up to a shelf in the shower, he lifted up the shampoo bottle and set it aside as he grabbed his razor, he looked down at his already scarred forearm as he pressed the metal against his wrist, he dragged it across as the blood pooled to the surface, just to be washed away by the water, he kept going until he got bored of it and got out of the shower. He was glad that his parents had jobs early in the morning so he didn't have to face them. Kenma stepped into his room, getting changed into his school uniform. He grabbed his game boy and school bag and walked out the door, walking towards school. Kuroo eventually joined him on his walk and they talked about stuff, but one thing that kuroo mentioned broke his heart "I have a date tonight with a girl in my class so we can't hang out" kuroo said and kenma frowned. Kenma has had a crush on kuroo for a long time, but kenma knew kuroo was probably straight, so he hid his feelings. Kenma just nodded and pulled out his phone, continuing to walk to school. Events kuroo headed off to his class, leaving kenma alone again. Kenma stared at the building trying to build up the courage to face the bully's again. He took a deep breath and walked in, trying to get to his class as fast as possible, but someone had grabbed his hood and pulled him back,slamming him into a locker. That person was oikawa (pretend he goes to nekoma k idk, also I love oikawa I just couldn't think of anyone else) kenma flinched as oikawa slammed his head into the locker agin before shoving him to the ground and kicking him in the chest "Fucking weirdo!" Oikawa yelled as everyone else in the hall laughed. I looked up at him as he laughed "your pathetic" he snickered and finally walked away, kenma layed there for a minute before getting up and limping to class.

Kenma sat through schools being extremely bored, the bell finally rang as he ran to the gym trying to avoid oikawa. He got there and waited until everyone was done changing to go into the change room. Kenma walked out of the change room as Yaku gave him an unimpressed look " Kenma you gotta take the hoodie off" yaku scolded and kenma groaned "but I'm cold" he lied and yaku shook his head "fine just be careful" he said and walked away. Practice went on as normal and when it was over kenma got changed again and quickly started to walk home without kuroo today. He dreaded going home but he had no one to hang out with today, so he cautiously opened to door and walked in to see his dad on the couch. He tried to dart to his room when his dad grabbed his arm and dragged him up the stairs, kenma tried to pry his dads hands off him but it wouldn't work, so he just cried silently. His dad shoved him into his room and pushed him down on the bed as kenma's father started to take off his clothes and kenma froze, "no please no" he whispered as his dad crawled towards him and kenma backed up "no dad stop!" He yelled but it was no use "shut up you little shit" his dad yelled as kenma braced himself for what was about to happen..

Kenma sobbed in his bed at the feeling of everything being sore, he clutched a pillow to his chest as he shook. He eventually fell asleep as he sobbed....