You hate me

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When Kokichi was first accepted to Hopes Peak Academy, his intent was to not get attached to anyone. Being bored and quite derogatory boy he was, he spent his time making enemies and teasing others. He didn't care for his reputation as much as his grades and classes. Despite being an absolute asshole almost all the time he managed to invariably get the highest scores in his entire grade. Always 100%. To him what mattered most were not relationships but building up his talent and being the absolute best in his entire grade. Well those were his intentions until.. He came along. Ah yes when Ouma first saw those dull grayish gold eyes at that prosaic look on his face, Ouma's first though was..

'What an Emo'

He would laugh at him everytime they passed each other in the halls and snicker at every single mistake the Emo boy did. Without any remorse whatsoever. Well for the first 3 days at least.. He still remembers that day vividly...

Ouma had been injured by a few kids tired of his bullshit. His leg had been fractured and he couldn't walk. He couldn't cry for help either since, the teachers were in a meeting on the other side of the campus and anyone who'd hear him wailing would probably take picture and leave him there crying why the snickered off to post the image on their social media. So Ouma was in quite the predicament. He sat there silently for a while trying to figure out a solution for his problem when a certain Emo turned the corner.

Kokichi just looked at him silently and Shuichi looked at him back. This moment of silence and awkward staring lasted about five minutes before Saihara let out a sigh and picked Ouma up bridal style.

"H-Hey! W-What are you doing!? Put me down, peasant!!" Kokichi whined and flailed around in Saihara's arms desperately trying to break free from his grasp.

"Can you stop squirming? I'm just gonna take you to the nurse Mikan." He didn't even bat an eye as he said that. Ouma immediately stopped squirming and instead looked at Saihara with a confused look. Saihara noticed this and sighed once more, "Look I'm not doing this because I like you, I'm doing this because I was taught not to leave anyone behind, especially if they're in pain." He looked down and the smaller boy and gave him a slight smile before facing forward again and towards the Nurse's Office. It was at this moment Kokichi's heart started beating and his face flushed red. Thats when he realized, 'Holy Shit, I've fallen for an Emo..'

Sadly for Ouma, his crush had become friends with the two people on this earth whom hate him the most. Maki Harukawa and Kaito Momota. Both of them had shared their stories with Saihara about how terrible Ouma was and to stay away from him at all costs.

Now whenever they pass each other in the halls Saihara gives Ouma one of the dirtiest looks known to human kind.

Which leads us up to this moment. Here we have our sweet grape boy in his dorm his door blocked with a chair and headphones on to keep out the constant banging on his door for him to fight some dumb kid he teased. He was listening to Lofi - The burn marks on my Epiano won't go away on loop. It was one of those silent songs that had no vocals and lulled you to sleep with their enchanting beats and soft whispers. For Ouma this certain sing always arose something in him. A certain feeling. On nights like these he bathed in that feeling, indulged in it and cried for hours. He could never quite pin point the nerve or feeling this song hit but either way it was perfect to block out the bangs outside and cry himself to sleep. After all, this is the only time he can cry and keep to himself. It felt good to let it out. To him this was a sort if nightly ritual. He'd done this every night since Saihara hated him.

Thoughts often spiraled through his head whenever this nightly ritual commenced. Whether it be good or bad. A popular thought in his brain usually was 'Is this what heartbreak feels like? Why do I even care about him so much.. Why do I have to be such a jerk.. I wish he liked me back.." His nights were and endless loop of those thoughts as he cried his eyes out. Eventually he drifts off into La La Land and dreamed of a better reality. One where Saihara loved him and returned his painfully strong feelings without a hint of disgust or hated in his eyes. Just pure love..

And that's the end for the first chapter, hope you liked it

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