The Demon that lingered away *Phan*

The tree

Everyday it has given me hope. It gives me freedom from everyone. I don't have to worry about them anymore. They don't exist, it was all just a dream. A painful, horrible, terrifying dream about my life. Today I brought a new list of names to my tree. But I was only going to carve one, John. He can't be alive, he doesn't deserve to. He can just go die in a hole. Well actually, I could do that for him.

The next day of school I didn't see him. Just looked as if he just vanished from thin air, no where to be seen. I wonder what happened... hmm. I was sitting in the back of my class with a hoodie over my hideous head of mine. I have always been so ashamed of myself because everyone always called me "faggot" and "ugly". I can't help that I look the way I do now or that I have an interest in boys instead of girls. It's not my fault. Oh well....

The bell rang and class started. "Alright class, today we have a new student, Dan Howell." Dr.Brown announced. I didn't really care about it that much so I didn't look up. I was too busy writing down names for my tree. "Now we have to find you a place to sit. Lets see ummmm..... Phil!! All they way in the back in the empty seat." This time I looked up. Why next to me? Why not next to Sarah? The bitch that this Dan boy would want to fancy over. But I regret everything that I said about that. This boy was absolutely beautiful. With his dark brown eyes, pretty tan skin, fluffy brown hair in a cute little fringe, basically just perfection. Dan made my way to my table and sat next to me.

"Hello there."

"Hi.."

"So you're Phil?"

"That's me"

"Cool"

I just stared at him. His beautiful face is so stunning. I want to keep him forever... but I'm not so sure. "What's with the notebook?" He asked a little hesitantly. "It's something a little personal." "Oh okay, I understand." Dan replies. His voice. His voice is so sexy, I wish I had that voice.

The bell rang for the next lesson and apparently Dan was in that one too. I really do like him a lot, it's crazy. Usually people don't talk to me because I look ugly and disgusting. Apparently this boy doesn't think so, which he's probably not saying those things about me so he could be polite on his first day. The lesson started and I didn't pay any attention to it. I was just daydreaming out the window. I was literally about to vomit because what I was thinking about was horrible. Everyone looked at me.... I looked so hideous and awful no one came near me. They all laughed at me, I have to get revenge. Just then, the vomit started filling inside my throat and I had stood up from my chair and ran out of the room. I ran into the toilets and went inside a stall. I locked it and I started to vomit.

"OI!!" I heard someone outside the door. Who would want to come after me? "PHIL!!! ARE YOU OKAY?!?!?! WHAT HAPPENED?!?!" It was Dan, the new kid. Why would he come here and help me out. I'm a disgusting 17 year old boy who should be punished. Yet again, they should be also. I unlocked the door and saw him standing there looking very worried. "I... I.... had a panic attack. Why are you here? I thought you didn't like me." I cried out. He chuckled and said "Why would I not like you? You're a pretty cool guy, I was gonna ask before if I could be your friend but I didn't want to make things awkward." Dan replied.

"Oh.... usually when I have a panic attack, everyone just runs away thinking I deserve it." "I will murder whoever did that to you Phil, because you don't deserve it. Those people are idiots and don't understand how beautiful and amazing you really are." Beautiful? Amazing? Really? "Really?" "Of course you numpty. When I saw you when I came down to sit next to you. I couldn't take my eyes off you. You were and are really beautiful Phil. And to keep this between us, I'm kinda gay for you." What the bloody holy fuck did he just say? GAY FOR ME??!?!?! I think he made my day. "Same here." I giggled and meant seriously. Dan smiled at the comment, showing his cute little dimples. "Did I ever tell you you're adorable?" I asked. "Maybe you thought it but was a little embarrassed you would have to say it." He said back sincerely. "Well can I ask one more thing?" "Sure." I gained my courage and asked.

"I know we only just met but..."

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

"Hey I was gonna ask that!"

"But I really wanted you." He smirked.

"I don't like you."

"Oh shush Phil, you love me."

"I know."

"So is that a yes?"

"Of course it is."

And with that he leaned down on me and kissed me softly on the lips. It was my first kiss and I really loved it. It was sweet and short and Dan tasted like vanilla. "So, shall we ditch school and just go somewhere else?" He asked. "That would be perfect." I blushed and smiled. He smiled back. Dan took my hand and intertwined our fingers and walked out of the bathroom and out of the school. Now I get to show him my tree and how I get rid of the bullies.