Those who have Thorns

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Journal Entry 3

So Gavin decided to dye his hair right before going into highschool. He says he did it because he did not like being known as Carter's twin but I think he did it to look like the bad boy. But whatever the case is, it's bullshit because they are identical, there is no way you can't see one is the other's twin. It also doesn't help that they still continue hanging around each other. Only now can you tell them apart from each other, I personally liked them looking like copies of each other. They used to play treats and switch places, it was annoying at first because I wasn't good at it. But the more I hung around them, I got really good at the game and I could begin to tell them apart. Yea, they may have the same face but their personalities were complete opposites. One would try to act like the other but I was able to catch it. Now I can also tell which one is walking down the hall behind me with the sound of their footsteps, it is true they even walk differently. This should have been a sign that I was spending too much time with them, I was getting comfortable with having them always by my side.

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I opened my eyes fast when my alarm went off at 6 am the next morning. I rolled out of bed and realized that I never changed from yesterday, I'm gross. I walk to Carter's room and knock on his door, he answers it with nothing but a pair of pants on. I have to say I haven't seen his chest since we were kids and man has he grown. I didn't know he works out but clearly what I'm looking at is a nice toned body. They really are twins. He cleared his throat which brought me back to reality, I blushed at the fact I was clearly checking him out. I look down and say, "I'm not going to school today. I want to be home when mom gets here," I refuse to look at him and I also won't be taking a no for an answer. I begin to walk away and he grabs my arm, "Okay, I will let Gavin know but if you ever need to talk about anything I am here to listen," he gives me a soft smile and nod. I get to my room and decide to sleep for one more hour.

I woke up again around 8:30 totally confused for a moment but feeling more rested than I have the last few days. I made the decision to take a shower because I fell asleep twice in these clothes and I feel disgusted with myself. After the shower I throw on sweats and a large T-shirt because today is going to be a relaxing day. I made myself a nice bowl of cereal and plopped on the couch, what should I binge watch today on Netflix, staring at my options for about twenty minutes, I finally chose to watch Friends. About what seemed like four episodes in, I texted Jayden to grab my homework from my teachers and asked if he wanted to come over later. I began to watch the next episode when I heard a car pull up in the driveway. I got excited and went to open the door to surprise her with a huge hug but to my disappointment it was Gavin and Sara. Well looks like they kissed and made up, emphasizing on the kiss because they were making out in the car. I turn around and go back inside. I don't want to get on his bad side today. I go back to watching my show and ten minutes into the episode they finally enter the house. I paused it and looked up, "you're home early," Sara is hanging on him and kissing his neck, I have to keep from gagging. As they make their way up the stairs he turns to me and says, "we won't be staying and I suggest you put the volume up," I roll my eyes and he runs up and slams his bedroom door. I do as he says and raise the volume because god knows I don't want to hear it.

So you know the phrase that curiosity killed the cat well after the episode ended, I went to grab myself some water and I realized that I didn't hear any noise. So my bright idea was it was safe for me to go to my room and grab my blanket. I started to regret my decision as soon as I started passing his door. That is when I heard it, a girl's loud moans and a man's groans of pleasure, but I didn't take this chance to turn around and go back down stairs. I went into my room and instead of taking my blanket and leaving, I climbed onto my bed quietly and leaned my ear up against the wall. I could hear his bed frame slightly hitting the wall and her moans of pleasure asking for more and faster. Every few seconds I'd hear him groan from deep in his throat. I was listening to this for about 5 minutes and I realized my breath started to pick up, I closed my eyes and tried to focus on just him. My hand travels down and I start rubbing my fingers in slow motion to find that pleasure point and my breathing begins to pick up with every movement I make with my fingers. I begin to pick up the pace and I'm no longer leaning against the wall but leaning on my headboard legs apart and one hand down the front of my pants, the other covering my mouth, with thoughts of Gavin's naked body over mine and groaning in my ear. I can feel my body raise and I know I am about to hit my breaking point, I lean my head back and get some hip movement into it and then I hear my door open. I sit there frozen in my position, I'm embarrassed but so shocked I can't move an inch. Gavin stood there for about a second in only his boxers but recovered and shut the door. Fuck, the mood is ruined, I compose myself and I need to wash my hands. I open the door and Gavin is still standing there just staring at the door. I try to find a way around him but he snaps back when he sees me. He clears his throat, "were you listening," he looks down to look at me, I'm trying to maneuver away but I shake my head, "please excuse me I need to use the bathroom," he gets the idea and takes a step back but follows me close behind. I make it to the bathroom door and before I could shut the door on him he makes his way inside and shuts the door.