Vent

I'm 'fine'

So currently my dad and step mom are divorcing right.  So she had since REFUSED to do anything, even if it also has to do with her.  Like she'll be making food then not take care of the pans or pots.  HYPERCRITICAL ASS WOMAN!

So she'll always be mad at me if I do it but it's fine if she does it.  But she still tries to act nice towards me so I guess that's fine.  But she also has a job so she's gone almost all day, still fine

Then there's my dad so he promised to spend more time with me.  HAHAHAHAHA lies he's gone from 5 to like 5-7 so I'm home ALONE almost every SINGLE GOD DAMN DAY.

So now apparently I'm alone, has to do everything around the house.  SOMEHOW IS THE ONLY FUCKING ADULT IN THIS DAMNED HOUSE.  Then through the past 3 years he lost sight on who his daughter is. 

Then there's today's incident... so we're at a restaurant and he should know that I don't like the sun, right.  (I can't handle the light, heat, and it hurts my skin, so I try to stay inside yeah he doesn't like that.) but he still takes the seat outside.  I'm not happy right then he asks what's wrong so I try to say nothing and to just drop it right.. NOPE HE KEEPS POKING AT IT.

We're leaving now and he's forcing me to carry the pizza and I'm irritated and he keeps pokin and poking so I'm trying to keep it down

during this writing he's lecturing me on my sleeping on how I have alarms set to get me ready to get up.  Then saying how I shouldn't do that and then starts ranting about how 'proud' he is.  WHEN AT THE SAME TIME HES INSULTING ME AND POINT OUT HOW SHITTY MY LIFE IS RIGHT NOW.  No I shouldn't say that some people have it worse then me and if you reading this I hope things get better for you.

But now I try to just agree with him in every aspect just to shut him up because he won't listen anyway.  So I was talking to my mom and on the edge of a breakdown and he just had to poke it.

I'm just sick of his shit already...

Sigh* sorry if your still here reading thanks for listening to my problems. And sorry for the cussing I'll try to keep you informed.

Till next time my lil' demons~