So hey guys its black ethnicity here and first of all I jus wanted to say Happy Pride month to all my gay ass followers/readers that I might have. I just wanna confess to y'all real quick cuz I jus feel like its necessary cuz I know y'all don't give a shit about me😂 but nah fr in all seriousness, I wanna apologize for not being as active on this book as I usually was, during this time of era its been....stressful and I wasn't able to focus on this book like I'm supposed to, due the fact that I've been out ta school for a while and all and its summer and I've plenty of time. But I kinda lost touch, I've lost my focus and shit and trying to regain that and also focus on what's in reality like for at least 2 weeks its been hectic for me because of the events that's been going on, like the George Floyd incident, I've been quite angry and aggravated with literally anything that has happen and recently I had experienced another racist situation on one of my gaming apps and it tore me down bad and then I got shitted on by this racist fucking writer who thought he was better than me and probably was but its like you didn't have to make me feel like I was shitty, ya know, so that really made me lose all confidence and motivation for this writing stuff and for days now I've been sitting back and thinking on that and I jus keep think maybe he's right...........It's hard being a black teenager who's a little more opened up to the world and gives her publicly voiced opinions on a lot of things and then you have to worry about whether it's you next that's or a loved one that's gonna experience police brutality or jus any type of racist situation that could happen anywhere. When you're an over thinker, you have nothing else to think about other than deep thoughts about your life and the color of you're skin. Can't go to certain places no more because all you hear are either gun shots or police sirens all day everyday and you're scared for your life or you're brother's or sister's life when they're not with you within those seconds of hearing allat. Now it might be that one person that's gon be like "Well everyone goes through a Lil sumn in life, get over it, you'll live" and yes ppl have said that but No! Tf, we will not live us black people don't have that same privilege as white ppl, y'all don't have to fear for y'all lives every fuckn time u turn that corner or walk around your own damn neighborhood jus for sum air. Y'all don't gotta worry about getting pulled over and being dragged out the car for no fuckn reason what's so ever jus to have a police officer, a white cop! Put their knee into your neck jus for you to say...that you can't breathe and that you are gonna die and they never realize until afterwards. White ppl don't understand the fact that when they clearly see that we are unarmed and nonthreatening towards another that we still get attacked and killed jus becuz the color of our skin makes them all think well "oh well they jus need to comply and follow directions and maybe this won't happen to them" like bitch what?? Really?? That's what you think?? You think jus becuz we have an attitude or or like we mad about the situation makes you think that we're gonna try and resist, like wtf, we are only upset becuz we're scared amd frustrated on why we getting pulled over for no reason or the cop isn't telling us the reason becuz there isn't one and they jus wanna pick on us cuz I guess they think its funny and fun to kill the black folk. We have to love in that fear every damn day of our entire lives. Not saying all cops are bad, ( saying this for the people that's gon b yelling at me about it later) but most of them are, I don't even trust the ones that roll through our lil neighborhood and stares all the kids down that are playing outside like he's waiting for a little black boy to walk up to his car with a toy water gun or something jus to shoot him down and drive off like nothing happen. Now I knows it's actually some of y'all out there that are with us, like y'all stand with us breathe with us, bleed with us, laugh, dance , sleep eat and care with us, like y'all really are down but ask yo self this, everybody seems to have a platform and can say something, but exactly how long have you been walking amongst us, do y'all know that at all. That's what really matters. Not jus I'm talm bout oh we walking down the street and we all casually waking together or maybe past each other no, I'm talm bout actually walking skin to skin like a brother would to his brother , we walked hand in hand? A rope tired around our feet? Do y'all bleed for us? Do y'all say our names? I jus wanted to know. I mean I grew mostly around black ppl my almost whole life life so I jus wanted to know. But then again I do thank those people who are us and are walking amongst us and our sharing that blood with us. This is something that has been eating me up inside but I was too scared to say something and idk why if I'm just speaking for my people but it's the fact that I'm still young and I'm worried at the fact of being attacked not jus in the street but on the internet. Tbh ion even know if I started sumn on here😂 but ion care becuz I needed to b heard cuz y'all ain hear from Ina while and maybe y'all thought like damn where she at, I hope she good, shii y'all prolly ain care but that's all I had to say, if you got negative shit to say plz I advise you to keep it to yo self and soon I will get back to writing y'all I promise y'all ( I really need to stop promising shit cuz I'm fucking y'all up everytime) but nah I do promise this time like as soon as I'm straight, hold on never gon b dat what am I talking bout😂 I meant wen I'm in my right mindset then that's when imma get back to y'all cuz ion need y'all reading a chapter and y'all don't understand what y'all was reading cuz there was not hint or sign of English spoken in there at all😂 so yeah but I gotta whole plot for y'all its coming jus hang in there and I jus wanna thank y'all for that Lil haha 6.71k or prolly more haha, like if you know *whispering* if y'all can you know get me to 10k by the end of this month, I'll send y'all my nu- anywayyyyyyyyyyy!! I hope all y'all is safe and great and living y'all depressing yet depressing ass lives and y'all will see me in prolly like a year from now😂😂 I love all of you guys and the for the support on this bitch and yeaaa ummmm damn I don forgot my Lil message sign out thing, how it go...idk but shit if y'all know then say it for me 😂😂😂 Peace🖖🏽
~Muahhhhh
P.S: y'all I hella apologize my profanity like I try to limit it but that's jus how I talk and express myself but that's jus mainly how I talk, I know its unnecessary but oh well y'all should be used to it, jus ask my peoples they have to deal with this all the time😂 but anyways byeeeee lovessss.
P.S ( again ): also I Stan Wattpad , thanks for y'all support and using your platform to speak up for us.
