thoughts; a diary

thoughts.

the words. the images. the videos. the sounds. the songs. the memories. the future. the ideas that go through your head.

"an idea or opinion produced by thinking, or occurring suddenly in the mind."

thoughts; the things that come into your brain and make a massive impact, they do all they can to delve into your head and just fuck you up. they play around with you, until they get serious where they just want to hurt you; thoughts.

the shit that can drown you amongst your thoughts can be fucking horrible man. the constant feeling of dis-belonging. the willingness to just give up and leave everything behind. the things that once made you happy, are drowned away with thoughts. the way you can't fall asleep at night without the constant worry. the way you can't wake up without the anxiety.

not even being able to focus on the small things, let alone the large. saying things that could cause concern to others forgetting you're the only one living in your brain, the only one who understands your head. but isn't that hard?

people want to help you, but you can't even describe to them what is happening in your head because you don't know yourself.

the constant clouds, fog, rain and just blur; being hopefull for the day, just to turn into utter shit.

part of my life in 221 words. this one is short, but expect them to get longer.

much love;

- j.l x