Oneshots

The Book of You and I - Berica (Part 1)

Hi. I got another idea for a one shot, so consider this a treat. But sadly, this won't be a very upbeat one shot. Quite the opposite, actually.

WARNING: THIS ONE SHOT CONTAINS SADNESS AND PAIN. IF YOU DO NOT TAKE EMOTIONS OF SADNESS WELL, DO NOT READ THIS ONE SHOT.

The italics are the lyrics of the song, The Book of You and I by Alec Benjamin. The normal words are Ben's thoughts. This is a letter Ben addressed to Erica 6 years after SSBI. Let's get into this.

Dear Erica Hale,

"Well it all began in the back of her car"

If the SACSA's hadn't happened, if Alexander hadn't pushed me out of the car, if I hadn't started running towards the building, I would have never know you.

"I was just sixteen, but I fell so hard"

I wasn't that old yet, but the moment you pounced on me, I fell in love with you. I fell in love with your raven black hair, your icy blue eyes, and the scent of lilacs and gunpowder that you carried around everywhere with you.

"Well, the years went by and she held my heart"

From the moment I saw you, I never thought about another girl again. I wanted you, and only knew.

"But her love ran dry, and we fell apart"

You told me one day when we were alone that you liked me, but part of her just couldn't be with you. I persisted, but you just shook your head. Then you left me there, in the rain, to brood over those thoughts. That was the last ever conversation I had with you. Now it's been 6 years. I graduated and became a full time spy. You graduated too, but you only agreed to work part time for them. You told me there were other things in the world you wanted to try out.

"I felt her growing distant, I knew her love was shifting"

We promised we would keep in contact, and we did, but then one day you told me shocking news. That you had found a guy you liked. I was happy for you, and very supportive, but deep inside, it felt like my heart was being torn to pieces.

"And all that I could say was"

I texted you one last time, typing the lyrics from the song that fit this situation

"Don't tell me that it's over, the book of you and I

Now you've scribbled out my name

And you've erased my favorite lines

There were so many chapters that we never got to write

Like cereal for dinner and staying up all night

I remember where we started

I remember how you looked

But now I'm missing bits and pieces from the pages that you took

You didn't give a reason, I'll forever wonder why

We never got to finish the book of you and I"

I clicked send, and waited for her reply. You texted back, with just two words.

"I'm sorry, but it's for the best."

The message stopped there, but then you typed some more.

"I was afraid of hurting you"

And that was it. I never got to talk with you again. We never got the same missions, we never were at the same place at the same time. Over the years you may have forgotten me, but I will never forget you, Erica Hale, the love of my life.

Love always,

Benjamin Ripley

So ya. That's it. Sorry if I made you cry. There will be a part 2 though. Bye for now.

- Cookie