Bakudeku angst

I should have been there

(If you read this after March 29, 2024 please don't judge if some chapters still have horrible punctuation and grammar. I got bored and i'm going through and trying to fix it, but I don't have as much freetime as I did when I first wrote this so it may take me forever to get to all the chapters. I will warn that even if I fix the punctuation and grammar that can not fix the unfortunate cringey things my 13-14 year old mind came up with)
    I stare out the window as aizawa sensei talks about the usefulness of controlling our quirks and not charging into fights.

AFTER THE LECTURE

    Shitty hair comes up beside me and puts his arm around my neck. "Get off of me shitty hair!" I yell as he releases me. I look back to the window and see deku walking next to all might. I don't know how he ended up so far ahead of me. It's fucking annoying, but I don't have a feeling of hate towards him anymore. Seeing him smile just makes me want to grab him and never let go.

AT THE DORMS

    I see half and half walk by with Deku next to him. I stand up and grab dekus arm and drag him to my room.

    I push him up against the wall. He looks confused "why don't I hate you anymore what did you do?" I ask he looks even more confused. I then slam my hand on the wall right next to his head and he jumps. "I don't know what you mean kacchan," he says shocked as I lean closer to him. He has huge eyes. How have I not noticed he is really cute? I then feel something on my lips. I was so caught up in his cuteness that I didn't notice how close I was to him. We were k...kissing!!!! I back away fast and wipe my mouth. Deku just froze. His eyes got really wide. "Fuck sorry deku" I say but I surprisingly enjoyed it. "It's fine kacchan" deku said and smiled. I blushed a little, I wanted more. Deku tried to walk away. I grab his arm again and push him on the bed. He gasped. I then kiss him again but this time more passionate. The I wait for him to kiss back to confirm he was ok with this. He then kissed back so I slipped my tongue into his mouth. He returned the favor. I was shocked, this shitty nerd was a damn good kisser. We then stop and gasp for air. He looks at me with his cheeks red and saliva dripping from his mouth and I can't believe I just kissed Deku. I didn't hate it at all deku starts to speak "kacchan what ju-" I cut him off with another passionate kiss. I put my hand under his shirt and feel his surprisingly rock hard abs nobody except all might and me knew he had. He then gasped "w..what are y...you doing Kacchan?" Deku asks in a quivering voice. "Isn't it obvious?" I mumble. "Don't you know it's me Deku? The one you've bullied since we were kids?" He asked. I got annoyed "yes I know it's you nerd. Now shut the fuck up and let me continue." I say.

THE NEXT MORNING
-yes they did it and while I won't actually describe it. Be free to use your ✨imagination✨-

     I wake up and see Deku looking in my mirror. "Kacchan you could've made the marks easier to cover," he says touching a hickie under his jaw. He then turns and I grin at my masterpiece. He was covered with hickies and bite marks. I then feel my back start to burn. "Hey nerd can you tell me why my back burns?" I ask and turn around. "Um..." he says. I turn back around to see him as red as a beet. "I guess I got you good too" he says then giggles. I then walk towards him, "you better head back to your room before anyone wakes up" I say. He just smiles and nods, then walks out of the room.

A MONTH LATER

    Me and Deku started dating secretly and we still have those 'study' meetings. I hear as Deku is called to the office. I wonder what happened? Then, I see him and all might walking out of the school. Now I'm even more confused. I think nothing of it though and sit through the rest of class. After class, I ask Aizawa sensei where they went. He tells me the other heroes got info of the whereabouts of a weak villain and sent all might and Deku. So Deku could get used to defeating villains. Since he was the successor of one for all. I then leave the classroom and go for a walk not knowing where I was headed.

    I then hear a loud bang and run to where it was. I then see someone running away with blood on them. I think nothing of them, and run to where they were running from. I hear a familiar voice scream "YOUNG MIDORIA WAKE UP PLEASE!!!!" I turn the corner and see all might holding Deku. They were covered in blood and Deku was out cold. He had several cuts and bruises and terror fills my body as I notice his stomach was cut open and his guts were all over the ground. I call an ambulance and run towards them. Not being able to react to anything that was happening around me. As all mights screams flesh out any sounds of the city,  my eyes are frozen in place looking at the bleeding boy in front of me. The ambulance gets there and pick up Deku and leave me and all might there. They say he needs immediate attention and that we can't come with since we weren't his family. As soon as the ambulance leaves I turn to all might and finally ask " what the fuck happened?" All might explains that the villian turned out to have a quirk where he could summon clones of himself. One fought all might while another came out of nowhere and caught Deku by surprise and the other one set off a bomb.

AT THE HOSPITAL

     When we got to the hospital I went to the front desk and asked how Deku was but no one answered. I then saw a doctor and ask him. He said Deku was in surgery and no one knew if he would survive.

AFTER HIS SURGERY

    The doctor entered the waiting room and everyone stood up. The doctor said he was sorry and that he couldn't save him. I stomp out of the waiting room and head to the bathroom. I hear someone whisper as I walk away, "jerk doesn't even care that Izuku is dead." I then start walking faster. I get to the bathroom and lean on the door. I slowly drop down to the ground and hug my knees as the tears I had been holding in fell. They didn't stop. There was nothing I could do as the thoughts filled my head.
I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE.
I COULD HAVE PROTECTED HIM.
HE'D STILL BE HERE IF I HAD LEFT HIM SOONER.
"FUCKING SHIT!! I COULD HAVE SAVED HIM!!! I COULD HAVE SAVED THE MAN I LOVE BUT I WASN'T THERE FOR HIM!!!!" I scream

KIRISHIMAS POV

    After the news of Dekus death, Bakugo walked off somewhere and I heard someone call him a jerk. I followed after Bakugo to ask why he didn't care. The I saw him walk into the bathroom. I walk up to the door and hear a sob I couldn't believe it Bakugo was crying for Deku. I then hear him scream"FUCKING SHIT!! I COULD HAVE SAVED HIM!!! I COULD HAVE SAVED THE MAN I LOVE BUT I WASN'T THERE FOR HIM!!!!"I was surprised. I ran back to the others and tell them about bakugo being sad for Deku and they were as shocked as I was.

THE END