Pieces

Intermission : Repairs

Hi hi! So we've made it this far!

I hope you've understood and liked these "letters" so far. As you can see, they're odd. They don't make much sense and they're emotional. 

This is my mind. My heart.

And everything in between. 

This I how i breathe as someone who writes lyrics and poems as a way to cope with the smallest inconveniences of life. 

I'm glad it's starting to make sense to you. 

I'm glad you understand. 

You seem to be the only one who does. 

And that's okay with me.

As long as you believe me, trust me, and support me, i wouldn't care if the world turned against me right now. 

I guess I should get onto what I was thinking this morning.

Sounds odd, I know, but I do a lot of thinking when my moms not nagging me. 

I was thinking back on the differences of last year and this year. The differences in not only our friendship but in you. 

You've changed quite a lot. And to say I'm in awe of the differences, would be an entire understatement. 

I know to point out those changes, would be scary for you. Honestly I don't think you realize how much you've changed. And maybe, just maybe, I like to believe i was the start of it. 

The once cold heart that wouldn't let people in easy, is now warm with a burning fire of passion and excitement inside of it. Not saying that about your heart, though it might be the case, but saying it more towards you in general. 

You've told me and I've even seen how you used to be. Afraid to trust, afraid to love, afraid to feel.

And now, now I see the person who tries. The person who let me in. Even if it was for a second. Or even if it was a little at a time. 

I haven't seen it all, i haven't traveled the world of your feelings or emotions but I've seen a lot. 

I've seen what you've shown me. 

And not only have you slowly let me in, but you've also let others in. 

You trust easier, love quicker, feel more. 

And maybe I've got this all wrong. Maybe you've always been that way and i just wasn't seeing it. Or maybe, you haven't changed at all and I'm just rambling again. 

Although, i dont think thats the case. At all.

I watched how you got close to Jessie, listening to her rants about her insecurities and I saw how much you cared when you purchased the sock monkey kit just for her. 

I watched how you and Kait became friends, first just talking about me, then finding your own similarities and differences, and finding the connection within it. 

I saw how you apologized to me after realizing what Hope had done to you and our friendship. I see how you never want to go down that road again. 

I feel how you care about me when you hold me close, letting me be one of the first you've hugged and meant every feeling behind it.

So no, I don't think im delusional about this. There's a change, and though change is scary to me, this one seems to be the most comforting. 

Watching you smile more, laugh more, feel more.

It's got to be my favorite. 

-Grockie