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{⚐} Todoroki x Reader || addiction -II-

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        The birds chirped as a certain duo colored boy struck awake. Reaching for his phone to check the time.

He quickly got dressed and headed out for something to eat. It had only been a few days since he broke things off, but he failed to even reach out to you, to make sure you're okay. Thus, the lack of good morning texts he used to receive while he was with you. Something felt... empty.

As if his thoughts had come to life, there you were. Sitting across the diner, the two of you used to go to. He tried his best to make himself unnoticeable, but you didn't even know he was looking at you, in fact.. you didn't even know he was there.

Why did he have to choose this place to eat at??

He quietly observed you, It was clear you washed your hair recently, seeing as it was still partially wet. The clothes you wore, were clearly picked out at random. You looked, worn out, but not sad or beaten down. Just.. tired.

Todoroki did want to talk to you, believe me he would go to you right now and see if it could all be sorted out, but he knew this was what was best for you.

You however, felt a strange feeling always creeping up on you. You weren't sad, if anything you should be happy?? You don't have to deal with his neglect anymore, but somehow.... all the times you said you hated him you almost didn't even want to remember.

Deep down, you knew he was a good person, but you couldn't help but wonder.. Was it something you did? Why did the two of you grow distant in the first place?? What gave him such a drawn feeling to suddenly ignore you?

Were you annoying?? or maybe even not annoying enough??? You really hoped, all the thoughts in your head would be able to go away some day.

That some day, you'd wake up and not even think of the boy. Was that even possible..?

As you sipped from your coffee you only noticed a figure standing next to your table.

but looking up made your heart ache.. It was him, the boy you really wanted to forget.

"A-Ah! Hello.. Shouto.." You said with, a clearly fake smile.

"Do you mind if I sit?" He said glancing towards the empty seat in front of you.

Oh how you wanted to run away right now. "Sure..!"

"How..how have you been?" Todoroki said letting his eyes wander.

"I've been okay.. I'm hoping you've been doing good too?" You answered, finally being able to put your warm cup against your lips.

"I've.. been better" He said, unsure of what he was feeling at the current moment.

"Todoroki.. I don't know if I'm ready to tal-"

"You don't have to.. I just.. want to say something..." He started to fiddle with his hands a lot.

"[Name], If you think this is the best option for us then I.. I have no choice but to agree with you.. but if there's even the slight chance you'd let me fix this.. I would really like to. I know I didn't make it easy for you but I know how much I've missed you.. and how badly i mistreated you.. and for that I apologize."

You only sighed at this, it felt good to hear him acknowledge this but, you felt as if you've heard this before.. as much as you would want to run back to him, you were so scared things would go back to the way they were.

"Um Todoroki.. I don't know if I can take you on in my life again... I just need some.. some time." You couldn't bare to make eye contact with him.. even that could change your mind.

"I understand.." The boy got up from his seat. "Just at least... call me when you're ready to talk, okay?" and with that he walked away, each footstep making it easier to breathe for you.

You really didn't know what you wanted.. You loved him but, you weren't sure if you could survive the pain again. You simply needed time to even be able to think about being with someone.

-a few days later-

Your phone started to ring once again, how many times is he going to call you? You really wanted to change his contact name too.. but something just wouldn't let you.

You hated this feeling, you wanted him so bad, but at this point you realized he was getting tired of reaching out to you.

It reminded you of all the times he'd leave you hanging. All the times he willingly ignored you. Why would he do that? to make you feel bad?

You suddenly remembered all the cries he'd caused and how empty it sounded when he said 'i love you'.

He didn't love you. He just got used to you being his last resort.

"Shouto." you said, finally picking it up.

"[Name],, how have you been?" his voice through the phone sounded raspy.

"Shouto.. I think we'd be better off as friends."

"[Name]-"

"I've been through too much.. I'm sorry, we should've done this a long time ago."

You hanged up once again. You couldn't hear him say anything, it'd just make you feel worse.

but you hated that lingering feeling that sunk your heart and made you feel so heavy. You hated how much you got to love him, only to receive no love back.

How you, wrote hearts on the date when it was your anniversary. When you wrote little notes for him, hoping you'd get to show all of them in the future. You did all those things, knowing he probably couldn't care less about you.

Your love felt, useless. It made you feel sick.

You shed all those tears, knowing he thought everything was fine.

But who was to blame? You never told him you felt distant until a couple days ago.

Was the outcome what you wanted?

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Word Count; 1,009
Finished on; June 20, 2020
a/n: ummm this got a bit personal :(
sorry if you can't really relate the first one was more of just a vent but here's a part II since u guys wanted it
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