Defying gravity

Hi I'm Janair Rose, I'm 26 I live in a small apartment on the far end of town,and for me my life been a train wreck I lost job,been diagnosed with terminal cancer,have four months before I clock out from this thing called life,you think it could have gotten better for me? it didn't.

My life was simple,best school,college ,what could I wanted to be better than that ,my mother passed away and left me her house with the money I had going to the funeral I was broke and couldn't pay for college and had to drop out ,day of the funeral I said my final goodbyes as everyone wished me sympathy I held back my tears as they left me by the grave side the only thing holding me together was gone and all I have to remind me of her waI s her pride and joy ,her cottage close to the the forest overlooking the lake and boy was it an amazing view. Months after I mustered up the strength to go to the house and it was well kept ,to my surprise mother had everything neatly in its place only thing out of place was her tea set she died while having her usual morning tea i began to cry the pain was unbearable as the cup same place with the tea still in it I dared not move it from where it sat ,I moved further into the house and found her plant vase with withered roses ,she always picked roses every morning as the sun kissed the patio ,the last thing these roses saw was my mother smelling them and taking in the morning sunrise what was I to do ? tell me honestly .

I knew she was resting easy so I began to clean, I found the strength to move her tea set and set back the table as if she was here,damn it's going to be so difficult but I'll survive . Few months after I got a job at a diner and all was well I met a guy he was cute he fell for me and we started going out into the second year we had sex ,I was happy he decided to wait with me ,fuck the sex was amazing I forgot what u was missing out when I turned 29 he took me to dinner and proposed ,I was so fucking happy and for the first time in my life I was happy again,with his work he would always be away on trips sometimes for months I would be alone in the house dinner on the table hoping he walk through the doors and said "babe dinner smells nice" but was all in vain four months passed and I was shopping and I bumped into the ladies trolley in front of me she turned and blushed and before I can say I'm sorry she stopped me and said "it's ok ,I can see your having a bad day"I apologized and told her "I just hate the idea of being lonely ,shopping for one when your fiancé is always away"she told me it's ok we had a heart to heart before exchanging numbers and went our ways but I looked back ,I was attracted to her but she was married. Oh how that night went after that encounter I masturbated til I climaxed ,my knees shakey by the vibrating sensations from the vibrator,continued like this for a few weeks ,with some nights I experimented with food and fruits ,our conversations only got deeper and deeper as the weeks flew by and one night she came over and we had rose wine and steak and damn that food was delicious ,I just wanted to pour the sauce over her body and lick every inch of her "janair" she shouted and I snapped and she was heading out I had to think fast and I said "why don't u stay the night could sleep with me " she agreed.

As we got into bed we had girl talk and one thing led to another and she was between my legs ,sucking my clit and fingering me as she finished eating me out she told me this would be our secret ,this was the "girls night" I would tell my fiancé when he called and told me he be out few more nights ,eventually it ended with me and her ,she said it was fun while it lasted and we have to stop as we are friends and she doesn't want to ruin what we have ,I said ok I respect your decision but I wanted her to ruin my insides like she did especially when she used the cucumber omg was epic. As time passed we lost communication and my fiancé returned and we were married and he doesn't know of the infidelity between us and that was my secret he wasn't to know about ,years pass and we were still married and I was pregnant for him and boy was he excited ! I was ecstatic I'm going make him the happiest man in the world and give him his first child ,I still worked the diner on the 9-5 shift although he was working I couldn't be home I was independently driven and he didn't mind after work I made my way home I had a doctors appointment the next day I was excited! But here is where things took a turn for the worst ,my doctor told me I wasn't pregnant it was a tumor growing inside me and with that sent me to another doctor ,I broke the news to him and he was shocked but he supported me through the surgery after that he took time from work to take care of my while I healed 3weeks later I went to the doctor to check to see if everything is as it seems and what you thing ? More bad news I had cancer and it was terminal he gave me 4.5 months to live before it takes over my life and end of the road oh how I cried .