My Thoughts (One Shots) Depression Story

My "tumor"

I don't have any tumor it's just a creative story my mind created to haunt me

I was as usual sitting in my bed and reading a book. Then suddenly I felt dizzy, I know it's happening again but the only downside is it's the first time it's happening when my whole family is in the next room.

Just when I was thinking about what happened if they find me like this I fainted.

I smell something it's not my home because it never smelled like this and I heard some crying I recognized it was my mom.

Oh no please don't tell that they brought me to a hospital. I slowly opened my eyes to see that I was right. To my left I saw my family with worry in their eyes.

Yeah right " Worry " they would be happy to know that I'm going to die soon. I slowly started to sit up when everyone turned towards me and my family came near me to hold me.

"Why did you bring me here I would've been fine in a few minutes it's a waste of your money" I told them while my doctor came towards to check my pulse and the other things they do.

"What do you mean does it ever happened before" My doctor asked looking at my charts. He looked like Derek from Grey's anatomy if I wasn't in this state right now I would've definitely checked him out.

"That's not important just discharge me so that I can go" I said a little bitter. If he was quite then I could go live my last month and die without anyone knowing.

"Actually that is important so it would be nice if you corporate with us" The doctor said I am really nice person and I hate to be mean by knowing. I know I'm mean many times but I don't  know that and people don't tell me if I'm mean so I didn't find out about how mean I was until last month when I went through my old videos.

"Yeah many times I didn't keep count" I huffed and I know my family is looking at me. "What!! " my mother shouted.

I didn't give a flying fuck about what they think. I know deep down they are happy that I'm suffering. " Doctor the scan" A nurse came and gave it to him. Oh shit!!!

" You asked for a scan!! " I shouted knowing well how much my head hurts but I don't care about it. " Yeah of course we did we came to check on you  in your room you were passed out so we had to know if anything was wrong "my brother said with anger raising in him.

" Why don't you want to take a scan" the doctor asked calmly. "Because I know what in there" I said with a smug look on my face. "What's in there and how do you know it" My brother asked.

I know if I kept this still a secret there is no use so I started to tell everything. "My first blackout was 3 months ago. Since then I get this almost monthly thrice. After my third blackout I know there was something wrong so I took ally savings and visited a neurologist after that only I found that I have tumor and I only had a few months to live. I tried to tell you guys but you just went on blowing me off so I thought I can keep it a secret and just before I situation got worse I thought I could go somewhere and make it look like a accident" I said and looked at my family they were crying. It's fake and I know it they are probably dancing inside.

And the only reason they'll probably miss me is only for the reason that they will miss a punching bag. Someone to yell at or beat at. It's what I was to everyone.

"What did we do to you to make you hate us so bad" Asked my mom crying. " That's not necessary just leave me alone so that I could at least die peacefully " I said removing the tubes I had on me and tried to get away from everyone.

" Why are you torturing us like this! " My mother exclaimed. I felt anger boil inside me " I'm torturing you!! You are were the who are torturing me everyone I ever met. Am I hanging any signs on me saying that I'm a punching bag. Then why everyone is using me just to vent out their feelings. You know what it's too late leave me alone. You should be happy now your defective daughter is finally leaving you all alone. So that you can be happy with your Golden son who no matter what he does is always gonna be everyone's favourite. And me I'm always gonna be the defective daughter who caused nothing but pain to everyone" I cried and tried to get out of the room. But then I felt a small pain in my arm. I looked there to see some nurse injecting me.

"Yay I'm finally gonna di... " I fainted. And then the most feared thing happened I woke up. But this time I was in a locked room with my hands cuffed. My mind immediately went to my dirty thoughts folder.

There was a small window kinda thing in the door I looked outside to see my family with the doctor. " I know what you are trying to do i don't deserve death. For all the sin I did I deserve torture in return for all those people who I tortured. Is there an electric chair if you have please tie me to it I deserve more  than this is nothing !! " I shouted so that they could hear.

This is as far as it went. If it continued I'll edit this story.